Maybe you do not want to ruin the friendship and maybe I am one of your best friends. But you did not see today that every time you hugged him, kissed him and just were so close to him you killed me a little more inside. I know we will not be anything more than friends but you tell me you love me. How do you expect me to just get over you so quickly? Watching you with him may kill me. But I want you to be happy so even if it kills me slowly I'll deal