I'm sorry, sorry for everything. Im sorry I cant change how I feel. I make so many mistakes and I dont know if I can even trust myself. Everyhing is so hard. I dont know what I want anymore. I feel like im a different person when i'm by myself. I hate everything about me. I dont know what to do anymore. I say one thing that I think is true but then feel something different. I wish I was little again so I didnt worry about this.