With Time, We
Fall
Chapter Twenty
Six
Addison
I can't believe I barely knew anything
about Troy. It hurt me that he wouldn't tell me either, but I
suppose that's what depression does to some people. Shields
them from opening up. I wish that he would have opened up to me
though. I wish I could have helped him, how couldv'e I? I had
no idea that he was even sick. Troy puts up this strong front,
but thats all it is. A front.
He puts it up for everyone. And everyone in the school, aside
from Ryan thinks he's this all star, hot shot, perfect 17
year old boy but in reality he's having a lot harder time
than any of us knew.
How much does any of us know about anyone honestly. Everyone is
hiding secrets. Do we even know everything about ourselves? When
we're sick we go to the doctor, we don't know whats wrong
with us. Ourselves.
When something
is wrong we go to a therapist, or a friend to help us. Because we
can't help ourselves.
"Here, I
got you coffee" Ryan said as he handed me the hot cup.
"Was it comfy in that chair all night?"
"Oh, It was
great. I can't wait to do it again" Ryan laughed at my
sarcasm.
"Are you
sure you don't want to go home, you can spend the night at my
house I live closer by here than you."
I
thanked him and told him I was going to stay. He told me it could
be weeks but that didn't change my mind.
"You love
him, don't you?" Ryan sat next to me.
"Of
course."
He
put his hand over mine "And whatever he said the other
night, I'm sure he didn't mean it."
"I hope
not."
I
felt so sad in the short time that I had been without
Troy.
It
almost made me feel bad about ignoring Jenna for so long.
"I think I'm going to get some air for a little
while, but I'll be back later"
Ryan
nodded his head, looking pleased that I was getting out for a
bit. "Do you need me to drive you
somewhere?"
"No
it's okay"
I
called Jenna, we agreed to meet at a cafe down the road from
where I was, and that she could drive herself to.
I sat
down at a table facing away from the door, waiting.
"Addison?"
I heard Jenna speaking softly. I stood up, turned around, looking
her in the eyes, she opened her arms expecting a hug but I sat
down. She did too.
"Why
Anthony." I asked flat out
"I said
no"
"So he
r**ed you?"
"No... I
said no at first, but Addie I'm sorry! I couldn't stop
myself from starting to like him!"
"Yes you
could have!" I snapped
She
stared at me, "You couldn't stop yourself from loving
Troy. It's time. Time, Addie that does this to a person. The
more time you spend with a perons the harder you fall in love
with them because you find out so much about them, and how they
are, who they are. And you can't stop it. If you stop being
around them than you miss them, and thats how you know
you love them. Because you miss
them. It's
inevitable that someday you're going to fall in love with
somebody and you just need to accept it, there is no avoiding
it."
I could feel my eyes filling with tears, but I couldn't cry.
"And you feel this way with Anthony?"
She looked at her phone, "Well I did. Last night we got into
a fight about what our relationship was. I don't think you
have to worry about 'us' anymore."
I suppose the good friend thing to do was to talk to Anthony for
her. But I wasn't sure if I wanted to be a good friend.
Beside, Anthony would realize that Jenna was he only real
girlfriend that he didn't just use, or I guess in their case
that he wanted to just use.
"Anyway..." Jenna said breaking the silence, "How
have you been, how's Troy?"
"I've been fine. He's... good I suppose. We got into
a fight last night too actually. And broke up, kind
of"
"What?! No way. Addie you're kidding. You guys will get
back together, right? No. I know you will. You guys are one of
those couples, the ones that are supposed to be together. I can
see it, and though other girls in school are jealous, they can
feel it too. That's why they're so jealous"
"I don't know Jenna... it was pretty
bad."
We sat in silence again "I hope you're right" I
smiled at Jenna.
"Are we good?" She asked
"Yeah I think so."
And that was that.
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