(With Adam) overall it lasted
10 months..8 out of the 10 we were "friends with
benefits" and 2 out of the 10 we dated...it's been 3
months since it all ended.
I've already found
someone better than you. Someone who pays more attention to
everything I say and who takes the time to know me, someone who
actually wants to be with me, and trusts me, Unlike you did. But
then, I don't understand why I'm still so in love with you.
Why I can't get over you? Why can't I let you go?
There's just something about those 8 months with you where I
saw a side of you that made me fall head over heels for you. Why
did you have to change so much when we started to date?? But even
then you had me wrapped around your finger. Even then you had me
doing anything you said and begging for forgiveness at your feet
when we fought. Even now I feel like I need you. Like I just want
to fall to my feet in front of you and beg for you back. But I know
you won't come back. I'm not worth it to you. To the other
guy I am though.
(Jeremy) I was meant
to be with this guy, I know I am. He's been my best friend for
3 1/2 years now. I've always felt something for him... and now
I love him so much and I couldn't live without him either. It
feels so right. But if it is, then why do I still love you so
much!? Why do I still feel so drawn to you? Cry over you almost
every night? Why can't I ever go a day without thinking of you?
I'm so confused.. So broken.. so frustrated... and just
Ughhh!!!! What do I do? Is it possible to be in love with two guys
who are so different.. and treat me so different? What's wrong
with me?
