Hiya, I'm Melissa. I'm on here to help people out in life! I feel like it's the reason I'm here...to show people how wounderful they really are! every one is gorgeous and every one is perfect so don't be afraid to say you love your self! because you should <3
Smile and live life free and if you need to talk, I'm here!
Every one desurves to smile..And that means you too! I know how it feels to want to be in peace...want to not pick up that sharp object...wanting to not break and hiding your pain untill you turn into a robot and can't feel...You can talk to me about anything!
I guess I should tell you a bit about my self, I'm 15 in October 15th 2013, I live in Northern Ireland! I have a wide taste but mostly love glam metal! I'm nice as long as your nice to me! I've been dating a guy for nearly 5 years! :D I have had very bad patchs in my life so I do know how you feel and I am here! I hate my name so please don't call me it ahha (:
People who judge non stop for nothing, All I can say is "Why?" What's the point in it...Do you feel big to make some one feel small? Do you find it funny? Or you just so sad you don't see what damange it can do.. Jump on a piece of paper and hit it and all...That is what your doing to them! If they died would you not blame your self? How could you live with your self! Leave people to live there own life.. There beautiful and they can't see it because of you! Well I can see it...I see how amazing they are! But judging some one only shows what you are like in side.
relationships suck... At the start there amazing! You feel like it will never end You get spoiled rotten And love everyday but then you get to the end where it's all fights and one doesn't care any more and feeling lonely, unwanted and you know it's going to end soon Even though you don't want it to! and you just keep saying to your self "Why did I do this to my self again?"
99 Confessions 1. Last hug: Last night, Jim 2. Last phone call: Dad 3. Last text message:Aine 4. Last song you heard: Jess buckley - calling you 5. Last time you cried: 2 day's ago..It's important to not just build it up HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice: More than twice 7. Been cheated on: It was a very awkward thing I didn't really see it as cheating but the other girl did? 8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Nope, every one is gorgeous and desurves a kiss 9. Lost someone special: More than once but that doesn't stop me 10. Been depressed: Suffered from it for many years 11. Pulled all-nighter: Yep LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Black 13: White 14: blue THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made a new friend: Yep (:! 16. Fallen out of love: Impossible for me 2 do that /: 17. Laughed until you cried: I do that everytime I laugh.... 18. Met someone who changed you: Before yes they turned me into a b#tch but i've changed my self 19. Found out who your true friends were: Sadly....I've lost near all of them..well I thought they where my friends 20. Found out someone was talking about you: All the time! 21. Kissed anyone: Yes, I don't think it's gross or anything..you'd be surprised how much it can cheer some one up YOUR LIFE. 22.How many people on your fol lowers list do you know in real life: No idea... 23. How many kids do you want: 2 or 3 24. Do you have any pets: Yep 25. Do you want to change your name: No not any more 26. What did you do for your last Birthday: I think a sleep over I can't really remember 27. What time did you wake up today: 1:50 pm x_X 28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Becoming close friends with some one (: 29. Name something you cannot wait for: The day no one knows the meaning of bully 30. Last time you saw your mother: Last night? 31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: A few people I meet :/ 32. What are you listening to right now: Jess Buckley - calling you 33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: My granda haha (: 34. Who's getting on your nerves right now: I haven't talked to any one in a hour so..no one? 35. Most visited webpage: Youtube 36. Whats your real name: Melissa (: 37. Nicknames: Bully ones or ? :s 38. Relationship Status: In a relationship 40. Male or female: Female. 44. Last kiss?: Last night 45. Tall or short: 5,4 Average I think? 46. Height: 5' 4" 47. Do you have a crush on someone: I love some one 48. What do you like about yourself: I like that even when I hit the ground I all ways manage to get up 49. Piercings: Um use to have a stracher but I blue my ear out :L 50. Tattoos: Not yet but i hope to get hope and stay strong 51. Righty or lefty: Righty. FIRSTS: 53. First piercing: 10 my ears 54. First best friend: Aine or Roisin 55.First sport you joined I can't remember... 56. First vacation: First proper one will be in may to cyprus RIGHT NOW: 59. Eating: Nothing. :'( 60. Drinking: Nothing. :'( 61. I'm about to: I'm not sure haha... 62. Listening to: Ben E kind - stand by me 63. Waiting for: My mum to come home YOUR FUTURE: 64. Want kids: Yes 65. Want to Get married: Yes. 66. Career: I'm not to sure I'm hoping something around helping people with depression WHICH IS BETTER: 67. Lips or eyes: Eyes. 68. Hugs or kisses: Both? 69. Shorter or taller: Taller 70. Older or Younger:older 71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both! 73. Sensitive or loud: Loud! 74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship! HAVE YOU EVER: 76. Kissed a stranger: Yes..they where crying! :( and the kiss made them smile ^_^ 77. Stole something for someone: Nope that's mean! :| 78. Lost glasses/contacts: Do sunglasses count? :L 79. Hurt youself:More than once 80. Broken someone's heart: Oh gosh..yeah really badly...there's one thing I'll never get over! :s they near died.. 82. Been arrested: Nope! c: me good girl ;D 83. Turned someone down: Yes :c 84. Cried when someone died: Ofcourse! what else am I going to do, laugh? 85. fallen for a friend: I don't think so DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 86. Yourself: Yes! (: 87. Miracles: Sometimes. 88. Love at first sight: Yes! Because I KNOW it's true <3 Loved him since the first time I saw him :3 (Prove we stated dating 2 days after and we never even spoke and today we've been together four years!) 89. Heaven: no :/ 90. Santa Clause: I wish I did! :L Damn I hate growing up 91. Kiss on the first date: Depends...do you think he's the one? do you really think so? 92. Angels: no :c ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: I don't believe so... 95. Did you sing today: No :c I won't sing in my house :L 96. First person in your contacts: 191 (hairdressers) 97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? umm...I don't want to go back! (: then I would have to go threw all them hard times again! 98. The moment you would choose: what did I just say! :L 99. Are you afraid of falling in love? It sucks! :L but I all ready have
A message for people who self harm or thinking about it. I know how it feels to be so depressed that you self harm, ether pulling your hair out, punching your self, scratching your self untill you bleed, cutting and so much more ways...But it isn't the real answer! It never will be, you feel alone and that this self harming reliefs your pain and well it does but "only" for them few seconds...then the pain will get worse because you did that, and the scars shall only faid..There will all ways be a memories there.You hide all these becuase your afraid people will judge you, I know about that too...You go into school on a roasting day and refuse to remove your jumper or wear shorts..Your afraid people will hurt you even more than they all ready have! And I won't lie a lot of people will make fun of you for it...But when you stop it, it will feel amazing and you'll feel stonger! Because you got over it, your alot stronger than you think My dear, and so many people love you! You may not notice..when your depressed it's hard to notice anything good..But I promise you they do love you more than anything! Instead of hurting your self why don't you take a long walk? Block every one who hurts you out of your head, you don't desurve pain. Write an angry note and throw it away? Sleep? listen to music? Go out and exercize? Talk to some one you can trust? And if you can't trust any one talk to your self..look in the mirror! Look past the fake flaws you think your see and see the real you! Ignore everything bad ever said or done to you and relize how perfect you are!If you love your self life will be amazing, its not big headed it's being stronge.. I love you
You! Yeah you! You can do anything, do you know that? Do you ever get picked on? hurt? lied to? Wanna know why? Becuase your going to hve a better life than them. And they know that! Never let them put you down! Never be afraid As it's said Dont fear the reaper Your different and that's why your so god damn amazing