been so restless all day. keep
glancing at my phone.
messages from her (0). i'm never like this. i can
normally handle being rejected, but the possiblity of being
rejected by you really hurts. just f8cking text me.You know when
you say something and then instantly regret it. but theres no way
you can take back what you said, you have to sit and wait for a
respone, you sit and wonder how bad you'll be rejected or
will they try and let you down gently. i told you i loved
you and then i apologized... i apologized for loving someone,
seriously? wtf. just checked my phone for the millionth time
today. still nothing. i keep telling myself 'oh i bet
she's still in bed' or 'her phones probably
dead'. but deep down i know she's probably sat there
reading my messages and deleteing them one by one. i know
she will text back, but it'll be late tonight, she just wants
me to suffer. it's cool. i'll just go read a
book.
