For the one I love
~
Jared,
this is for you. I can never find the right words to make up
sentences to explain how much I love you, and how much you mean
to me, but here's somewhat of an attempt. Though I have dated
more than one other guy, I love you far more than anyone I have
yet to be with. Being your first girlfriend, I want to make this
relationship as perfect as can be for you. So far, things seem to
be pretty perfect to me, ever since I first started dating you. I
remember the small conversations we used to have on Facebook. If
you hadn't added me thinking I was just another person from
your school, I have no idea where we would be. We would probably
still have little to no conversations, and I would probably still
be moping over the last boyfriend I had. You have been such an
emotional help to me. You don't judge or critisize me when I
tell you what I'm going through. You listen to me like a
friend would, and you give me the best advice that you know.
Imagine what things would have been like if I didn't ask you
for your cellphone number, and better yet, didn't have the
guts to tell you that you were cute. Being as where we are now,
it's difficult to think that I was afraid to admit that you
were cute. I constantly tell you how adorable you are like
it's nothing. The night at the football game when we first
met, I was afraid to look into your eyes. It's funny, now.
It's funny how I used to think you lived in another state,
and my chances of meeting you were nothing. I can't get over
the feeling that I got when you had told me that you lived around
where I did, and then my chances of never seeing you went from
seeing you at least once every week. I can't ever forget that
night at the football game. The night that I had first met you,
and the realization I experienced just by seeing you in person.
Honestly, I was so anxious, I'm surprised that I didn't
faint and just fall to the ground. As if I thought things
couldn't have gotten any better, they did. You completely won
my heart over by asking to hold my hand, and when you just held
me and talked to me under that tree. These may be considered
small things, but they mean so much to me. Everything you say has
at least some significance to me. I never thought a single person
could have this much of an affect over someone else. I love every
second I get to see your face. It helps me get through the other
days of the week so much easier. Oh, and, you're the first
boyfriend I have ever had that willingly lets me spoon him.
It's even better when you ask me to, though. There's just
so much I love about you. I love the tickle-fights we have and in
the end we just end up kissing for a long time. I love how we can
snuggle and watch My Little Pony, and the fact that you like it
as much as I do is even better. I love how you don't care
about how obnoxious I can be around my other friends, and I love
how you have never said anything negative to me. You have never
judged me for who I am or for how I look. You accept me for who I
am the same way as I do for you. You're perfection all
jumbled inside a simple being, and I get to call that perfection
mine. I hope you know how much it meant to me when you jost told
me the things you have been through. You're just always so
honest, I can never have a reason to worry about the actions you
choose to make. I hope you understand how much I love you, and
how much this relationship means to me. I hope you know that I
will do anything in my way to make sure this relationship will
last for as long as it can, and to make sure that it will never
have any flaws. Ever since we first started dating, things have
seemed so much better and I appreciate small things, I appreciate
who you are for the most part. I appreciate how a guy as caring
as you can even exist. And I appreciate, that for your first
girlfriend, you chose me to be her. What I'm trying to get
out of this is my feelings, and for you to know how greatful I am
to have met you. I will admit, that it's really adorable when
you mock me over things that I have accidentally done. I love how
we can joke around with eachother and neither of us will get
butthurt over what the other person will say. Thank you, for
helping me out of the bad state I was in when we had first
started talking. Thank you, for just everything you have done.
For trusting me, accepting me, and mostly, for loving me. This is
real, Jare, and, I love you. I love you with every atom that
makes up my being.
