Words Left Unspoken
Chapter 30
Lauren's POV

     I walked on the tips of my toes out of the house. I had tears in my eyes. I felt Collin's warm lips on mine and his hot tears on my cheeks. He pulled away and pushed his forehead against mine. "Laur.. Keep safe." I frowned and more tears fell form his face, "Lauren. I love you, and I'm gonna miss you." With that he kissed me again and I felt the tears fall. "I'm gonna miss you too Collin. And you, you keep safe." I saw his lips perk up. "I know.. write me letters, because everyday I'm surviving physically, is a day I'm gonna be dying mentally without you." He pulled me into a hug and I cherished it. It was July, and Collin, was leaving for his tour. I was going to miss him.. I had gotten a part time teaching job.. it was sufficent. I waited in Collin's grip until he loosened and walked to the cab that was to drive him to the airport. Was this love? Yes, I knew it was love, but was this what it was supposed to feel like? Pain. I wanted Collin to stay. I needed him to stay. I really did. I waved as the car drove off and I faked a smile, though I knew Collin could see right through it. He always could. He read me like a book, and I didnt know if I should be happy or sad about that. But it was Collin, and I loved him to pieces. I rested my hand on my stomach and watched the tv.  This wasnt gonna be an easy year. It was gonna be hard. No doubt. I stood up and grabbed my car keys, as I was allowed to drive now. I drove to a bar, but it was abar far away. I drove from our home in Sacremento all the way to San diego, and ordered myself a drink. I was a mess, and after a few more drinks, I was a drunk one too. Uh-oh. I looked up through my swollen eyes and I saw a handsome man standing beside me. I dont know why I though he was good looking, I hadnt really looked at anyone the way I had a Collin, but that night.. I saw Collin. The man turned to me, "Rough night?" I smiled slightly, "Yeah, my uh.. someone in my family left for the military today." Yeah.. that wasnt to far frm the truth. He frowned, "Oh, I'm sorry. Hey. If you need to talk, I'm here, I was in the military for the past 3 years, my tour, just ended." I laughed through a drunk mind. "We dont have to talk." He smiled and leaned in close, our lips barely touching, "Like this?" He whispered, laying his mouth on mine. He kissed me roughly, but for some reason, probably my drunkedness, I kissed him back. I pulled away, "Exactly." The man slid the bartender some cash and said, "Get me and my friend some drinks to go please." Teh bartender questioned him what.. and he smiled, "The strongest you've got." He handed him some hardcore whiskey in a bottle.. And then the man grabbed my hand, "What's your name?" I whispered and he laughed, "John. What about you?" I hesitated, "My name is La- uhm Laura." He smiled at me I got into his car. I dont know what I was thinking, "How old are you?" He laughed, "I'm.. uhm.. 20" I smiled, "Me too." I should've seen through that lie. We all know what happened that night. And its something I regret with everything I have. I cheated on Collin. I cheated on my husband, who I loved, the night he left.. for war. And now I was pregnant.. but it wasnt Collin's. It was, "John's."
Rule #233958984: Lauren Tanner, should never get drunk.

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 Sorray!!!!!!!!!!!! HAD TO HAPPENE 
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