so theres this guy... and ik we all say this but i think im in love with him. ive liked him since 6th grade and im in 9th now. its hard to like him bc i know i could never go out with him. its complicated to explain but ill try. hes not the sharpest tool in the shed if u know what i mean but hes perfect to me. i dont tell anyone i like him because im afraid to. hes not the type of guy u can just date. no one looks at him the way i do. i always pretend i have no feelings for him while deep inside it kills me to see him happy with someone else. hes not dating anyone and frankly i have no idea who he likes but im pretty positive its not me. i used to talk to him everyday but now its rare i get a text once a week. he talks to my bestfriend and whiles she brags about all the things he tells her it gets me more and more upset. however ill never act upset bc i cant tell her i like him she'll just judge me. and ik ur prob like what kind of friend is that? well shes my bestfriend and i love her but as i said before its hard for people to like this guy. hes not boyfriend or husband material but for me he can be. ive never told him how i felt because ive always been afraid of the answer ill get back. hes in my grade and hes got bluest eyes that make me melt when he looks at me. i can trust him with anything and he was always able to trust me. but now we barley talk. even if were just friends id be happy but the fact that we dont relle talk anymore kills me. if he even considered asking me out id prob say no because like i said its impossible to like him. ik u dont understand why it is and i cant really explain it but if u knew him ud get it. hes the only person that can cheer me up when im sad which is pretty much everyday he knows exactly how to make me laugh and he knows almost all my secrets. he looks at me witch caring eyes that make my heart skip a beat and he talks to me like actually cares. i think he can see through everything except my heart. he has no idea how i feel and he prob never will. im to scared to tell him i love him even tho i say everytime we leave when we talk but he thinks just as friends. its funny how 3 words could mean so much to one person but nothing to the other. i dont think he takes a second thought about me while i spend every second of everyday trying to get him to think of me the way i think of him. i just wish i could tell the truth but id lie if he asked if i loved him. SORRY FOR VENTING I NEEDED TO I REALLY APPRECIATE IT IF YOU READ THIS, AND IF U COULD HELP ME THROUGH THIS.<3