I dont expect anyone to read this or care but I havent really vented on here and now I feel like I need to. My nana recently died and she was so special to me. She was there for me at everything. My dance recitals, holidays, graduations, and every other big event in my life. She was my best friend. Everyday I cry. whether its in my room, school, and cry quietly to myself. I feel fragile about myself. It's hard not to think about her and smile cause if shes not here than why should I? Around people at school or my friends I try to act happy and laugh. But its hard to not have my nana call me up every other day and ask me how my day was and how school and sports are. My birthday is coming up and every birthday ive had she would call me and leave me a message acually singing happy birthday to me It was so funny but she would always put the biggest smile on my face. She was the funniest nana ever! I try not to talk about her infront my friends cause I know there getting tired of it. But I feel like my mom is the only one that will listen to me about her. Well cause it was her mom. Lately Ive been getting confused who I can call my best friend. Youre suppose to just know but I dont. After my nana passing everything got worse. Im crying right now while writing this. Theres no one I can call and cry my heart out to. And I need that. Everyone is leaving me. My nana, my brother at colloage, and my friends. Everything I see reminds me of her. Ever sense she died ive been hearing and seeing everyone talk about their grandmothers. Which makes me wanna cry like now. Sorry for taking up all your space up while trying to look at other quotes.