Finally i got too a computer. but theres not enough time to vent... to write everything thats been on my mind the past few weeks. these past couple weeks have been the most fun ive had in a long time, but at the same time theyve been the most difficult, horrible weeks for me. how does that work? im learning to function on my own again, thank god. If it wasnt for me wanting to constantly cut or kill myself, then id be better by now. but thats all i think about, is the thing. it sucks. really. theres no peace of mind, theres no closure, just moving on, onto the next one. finding peace in the little things, thats my secret. take it day by day. stay busy during the day and when night comes and your left with nothing but your thoughts, do whatever you need to do to survive that night. survive day by day, never overthink too much. just do what feels right.