so im crying. I had a fight with my mom but it wasnt really a fight. i know i shouldnt be writing this because its going to make me cry more but its the only way ill feel better :/. so i was on Witty on my ipod and my mom snatched my ipod and was all up in my business.she was like " whats this?! what are you on? why are you on this? what does that say?" i grabbed my ipod and got mad at her. she said " why are you mad?" i told her that i wanted her to leave me alone. then like 5 minutes later I told her i needed someone to talk to and that i wanted to sign up for counseling again. she said i could talk to her then she asked me all these yes or no questions but there was one question that caught my eye. " are you hurting others?" i responded by saying " no others are hurting me" then its like she read my mind. she asked " am i hurting you?" i said " yes" then i told her the truth. i told her EVERYTHING ive been thinking about for the past 5 months. the last sentence i said was" you should stop trying so hard to make dad stay and be happy. if hes not happy and he wants to leave again just let him." after that there was silence. I looked up at her for the first time in this conversation since the whole time i had my face buried in my hands. her eyes were watery. she was about to cry. then she got up and left.

I feel kind of torn. like half of everything. i kind of feel bad fir saying that but on the other hand i knew thats the truth. i just told her the truth. and she knew it was the truth. thats why shes crying. were both crying. the truth hurts.