This morning, I woke up to my parents yelling at me. Why? Because
I didn't want to go to cross country. They were saying that if I
didn't go, they'd take away my phone for the weekend. So? I have
textfree on my iPod and they don't know that so I'm okay as long
as I have wifi. Then they started saying they'd take it away for
the entire summer. Okay so if I don't go running one day, you
guys are going to cut off all communications with friends and
family? Do you realize that 9 out of 10 times I have to CALL my
brother to get him up so he can pick me up from running?
Apparently not. You apparently also do not realize that my
friends are really the only thing keeping me sane. So if you were
to take my phone away for the entire and I end up sitting in a
finer slamming my head continuously against a wall, it's YOUR
fault.
Anyways, they don't realize how much I f//king hate running. I'm
not built like a runner, I don't have the personality of one, I
don't have the drive like one, and unlike a majority of girls on
my cross country team, I don't care enough. And since I am not
built like a runner, or have the stamina of one, and I get
lightheaded and experience vertigo easily, today while running in
the woods, my vision started getting spotty and I felt like I was
going to get sick and everything seemed to be spinning and I
started getting a headache and I started falling over. The main
coach who was running one or two people in front of my noticed,
but didn't say anything. No one did. Even when, once I finished
the course, I walked a few steps away from end of the trail, and
literally almost collapsed. Anyone say anything? No. Anyone
notice? About half the team.
Oh, and this morning after my parents stopped yelling at me and
my dad left, I started bawling my eyes out. What does my mom say?
"Katie, you have five minutes to get ready."
I'm sitting here crying, there is obviously something wrong, and
you f//king ignore it? Yeah, because that totally makes perfect
sense.
And while I was sitting there, crying, I thought about it. And I
seriously considered it. I seriously considered killing myself.
My parents don't understand how much I f//king hate this and even
when I bawling in front of them they ignore it. Why even bother?
_SpeakYourMind · 1 decade ago
Hi girly, I'm here for you if you ever need someone to talk to. You're never alone, keep your gorgeous head held high.
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