Confessions
of a Teenage
Perfectionist
Confession Number
Thirteen: I'm used to being
alone.
I didn't know what else to do.
So I got up, and got ready like usual. I kept my ears wide open,
listening for any signs that he might be at home. Seven
o'clock rolled around, and I didn't have time to spare
and wait any longer, or I would be late.
At my locker, Josh sidles up, and without looking at me he
fiddles with my lock, humming under his breath.
"So my mom was concerned when she found orange paint behind
my ears. Must have missed a spot." He laughs, and glances up
to see my reaction. I don't give him one. Just silently put
books back on the top shelf. He kicks away my backpack, demanding
my attention.
"What happened. Did he hurt you again?" He tries to
move my sleeves, but I back away from him and retrieve my
bag.
"I don't have time for this right now." I tell
him.
"Time for what?" He asks.
"You."
He bangs a fist against the locker next to mine, and rests his
head against the vents, frustrated. I see him bite his lip,
trying to maintain emotional control. Sometimes I wonder if he
has anger issues.
"I'm sick of this crap Colyssa! One day, we're best
friends, and I see you coming out of that, that, SHELL you've
made for yourself. The next day it's like nothing happened at
all and you've friggin superglued that shell closed! I
CAN'T. WIN."
I'm frightened by his sudden outburst, but unwavering.
"What do you want from me Josh? If you plan on somehow
changing me, that's not going to happpen. I have a lot of
things to do, and I can't have any distractions right
now."
"You're always saying that! I don't need this! I
don't NEED to be friends with you, in fact, the guys make fun
of me for even trying! So why do I, huh? No, don't answer
that. I'm sick of this Hot and Cold attitued thing. Forget
it, I'm out."
with that, he turns his back on me and walks away. I don't
have time to feel the sting of his words. For as soon as he walks
away, another hand is on my shoulder. It's Mr.Hansen, the
school guidance counselor.
"Excuse me, Colyssa, can we talk in my office for a
bit?"
***
I've never been in here before. The walls are plain, but
plastered with motivating posters, and it's furnished with
tons of armchairs . He sits at his desk and puts on a pair of
glasses, the kind people use to magnify words or pictures once
their eyes get bad.
"We recieved a call from the Jackson Hospital this morning,
you must have just missed it when you left this
morning."
I feel my palms geting sweaty. He pauses. Why is he pausing. Just
tell me already, Mr.H, spit it out.
"Your father got into a car accident last
night."
I nod along, waiting for the punch line.
"He's in intensive care. At this point, they're
fairly certain he'll make a full recovery."
I let out a full breath of air, relaxing, and slumping back in
the chair.
"That's not all that I wanted to talk about." He
adds, making his voice serious, yet light. A voice I'm sure
he's practiced.
"It was apparent he had been drinking. We traced back his
wherabouts to Lucky Duck Bar and Grill, and the tender said he
was a regular. As in, every single day, leaving
intoxicated."
I freeze. Why am I here. What does he want.
"I've been asked to make sure you were aware of this
fact, and if everything in your home life is okay."
I nod rapidly, self consciously pulling at my sleeves, getting
anxious. I don't like this man.
"Colyssa, everything you say is said in confidence. I am not
at liberty to say, it's between us."
"E-everything's f-f-fine sir, honest." I tell him,
losing my cool.
He nods, accepting, "Would you like me to take you to go and
see him?"
Stupid man. "I would love that." He escorts me to
office, to get a pass to leave.
Josh spots me on his way to his first hour class. He pauses, if
only for a milisecond, but then continues on like he never saw
me.
I'm going to the hospital. To see my father. For the first
time in years, I'll see him sober.
I'm scared to death.
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rae29dagwr · 1 decade ago
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Pleasee continue this story...It's too good to give up on!