This one boy, who is finally the right one, as it seems. The one who agrees with me, makes me laugh, trys to seem cool infront of me-but not in a jerk way. The boy who immitates me in the funniest way, the boy who quietly reassured me that my name was beautiful, the one who takes 5 hour energys just to stay awake with me on oovoo...who makes sure im not tired, and who is always himslef. he doesnt care about the stupid system that our dramatic school lives by. He doesnt care what people think about him, no matter what. He's the one who would never let anyone hurt me, the one who would stick up for me, even if it was his best friend that he was defending me from. He'll chose me no matter what. He asked me, "if you had to pick one boy who you would marry and spend the rest of your life with, and the 2 of you were the last humans on earth...who would you pick?" I told him i didnt know....meanwhile i was clear of what the answer was. When i asked him, he was sure of the answer too, but responded the same way as me. I like it this way. We're just close friends. This is perfect...because it seems that whenever a boy finds out i like him, it just gets complicated and ends badly, but this friendship is way too much to sacrifice for something so stupid as dating. We're too young anyways, its not like we can go out on a real date where he picks me up in his car. But aside from that, if i was to have a boyfriend, or a spouse to marry and spend the rest of my life with, it would be nb33. But my problem is, hes a year younger than me. Maybe in high school, when im in 11th and hes in 10th. But for right now, i like it the way it is...almost like a mystery. we both drop clues that we like eachother, but we never make them obvious. I love it this way. because i get the best of both worlds. I've never had it like that, and I didnt think i ever would have it like this. But he's what matters now, and he's what gets me through the day of having to be fake and putting too much effort in just to come off as pretty. becasuse i know that i can see him, wheather im in an evening gown, or im in my ratty pj shorts and baggy sweatshirt, he'd love me either way. and i love him too. FINALLY things are working out and there really IS light at the end of the dark tunnel ive been traveling throgh for a long time.....MUCH too long.
<3 NB33 <3

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