Just need to write out how I feel....

It's been a while since i've seen your face.
Too long for me to handle.
I see you, feel you, hear you around my room.
Almost like you're there with me,
protecting me.
That thursday night, while i was in the shower.
You came over to see my mom,
I had no idea..
After a couple days, i was up late, 12 am to be exact.
I saw my mom speed out of the drive way.
I waited, and waited... and waited for her to come home,
to ask why she left so late, so quickly, without telling anyone else.
As my mom walked through the door.

Her broken voice spoke hurtful words.
"Uncle Gary Killed Himself. He's Dead."
I cried, and cried, and i told my brother,
and my mom, and brother and i stayed up until sunrise,
and got some rest.
If only i can take that back.
If only i can show you i really cared.
How hurt your daughters , your family, your friends would be, maybe you would
be here right now..
Maybe i would end the sadness.

I just want to hug you one more time, and tell you I love you.