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It seems like everyone at the place I want to be the most, hates me.
My boyfriend and bestfriend is moving to Arizona.
My "best friend" suddenly hates me.
The other girl hates me too.
My other best friend got in trouble. Again. And is never coming back out.
My trainer, who used to love me, now seems to favorite the one girl who is out there the least.
I put 110% into my riding. She doesnt.
Im out there everyday. Shes not.
She's such a suck-up. I hate it. I cant stand it anymore. I just want to leave.
At the show, Sunday, she was cleaning all the stalls and wouldnt let me have the bucket for the wash rack. I swear it took all my self control not to go right up to her, curse her out, and punch her.
My parents get mad at me for not talking to her, then they ask me why I dont talk to her, then when I tell them. They get mad at me.
Everything I tell my trainer, she puts down.
I feel like I ride horribly.
I can't even be good enough at the place I want to be the most.
She just wants to be my trainers favorite. And its working. I just can't take it anymore. I've told my parents I want to leave. I've told them a million times. They wont listen at all. Sometimes, I feel like riding out the back gate and just running away. I almost did today.
My horse has saved me from suicide, 3 times, I love him, I just wish we wernt at that barn. I'm miserable there. My parents just cant see that.
I used to be the first one there and last to leave. Now I barely want to go just because of two mean girls who used to hate each other, now suddenly, are teamed up.
I feel so unwanted at the place I want to be the most.
If you read this, thank you.