Witty Profiles
Just a vent.
I tell everyone that I'm fine. But I'm not. I'm not.
Let's start, shall we?
One of the bestest friends I've ever had, we fight. So much.
It breaks
both of us every time. We both know it. I don't want to stop
talking to
her, butI know how much it hurts her. And she has enough problems
of
her ownalready. I just add to it. It makes me feel even more
guilty. And
I'm always such a b.tch to her. I feel horrible. I don't
mean to be, but
then I snap. Like a pencil. But I can't totally break yet.
And then there's
Jake. I don't want him to go. Last night I stayed up for
hours talking
him out of it. But what happens when he doesn't care what I
say?
What happens when just a text isn't enough? I live half an
hour
away. By car. If he doesn't want to listen to me, he'll
do it, and I won't
be able to stop him. I got lucky last time. Because the noose
broke.
That won't happen next time. I think I love him. But I'm
not sure
anymore. -- I cut last night, too. I deserve the pain. The guilt.
I deserve
all of it. I'm an ungrateful b.tch. A self-centered wh0re.
And in my
honest opinion, I don't think people should bother caring
about
me. All I ever do is cause problems for them. If I died today,
it
would make things easier on everyone else. I know you might
think,
oh, what about when so-and-so finds you dead? And starts
crying,
etc. But no, you're wrong. Dead wrong. (Get it? haha) My
mother
wouldn't have to spend money on me all the time. She could
do
whatever the hell she wanted. My father wouldn't waste
gas
to pick me up all the time. My friends wouldn't have to
listen to
me complain about my problems. Wouldn't have to worry
about
me anymore. The rest of my family wouldn't have to deal with
me
and my annoying, stupid personality. My teachers would have
less
papers to grade. Everyone would be happier. Maybe I'd be
happy wherever I'd end up. But I just can't stand this
anymore.
I don't wanna be here. Saturday night, 9 pm. Maybe
I'll be gone.
5 faves · 7 comments · May 10, 2012 5:01pm
giveyourheartabreak
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1 decade ago
please dont go. i care about you. i love your posts and your stories and everything and im gonna miss that. please dont kill yourself. if u need me im here for you...i promise. i already emailed you so you have my gmail. stay strong. i love you :)
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Mustachee
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1 decade ago
here's my username; crazycakessx3
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Mustachee
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1 decade ago
talk to me okay?; i have a kik and its like this messenger thingy cause i want to help you and believe me, i know how you feel. i've been through it too <3
so here's my username, feel free to message me anytime okay?<3
crazycakessx3
i love you, (even though i don't really know who you are) be strong.
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KillMeWithLove
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1 decade ago
please don't be go. I actually care for you. You may not think I do because we rarely talk but I do. I know how hard it is to have a friend who wants to kill themselves and be too far away to stop it, I have a friend who I rarely see but we are like sisters. She always talks about offing herself and I hate it. Please don't do it. Don't rid the world of yet another wonderful person.
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dandoune97
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1 decade ago
Don't. You will get through. I promise. I know you will because tons of others have, including me.
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Melrose*
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1 decade ago
No.
I love you.
Please stay.
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What_they_dont_know · 1 decade ago
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don't hurt yourself. don't take your precious life, if your going through a tough time find someone to talk to. Keep comforting Jake and tell him that the reason the noose broke last time was because god wanted to keep him alive. If you need anyone to talk to i'm here, but stay strong :)