what we used to have
preface
click! the camera on my blackberry made a shutter noise. the picture was in the dark. couldn't possibly let anyone see my wreck of a face.
i felt so alone so depressed so unwanted. only one thing could cheer me up... Jake. he'd moved away last month and since then without him to comfort me i was lost. why did he have to move away? why? a single salty tear dripped onto my phone 'right' i thought 'Jake wouldn't want this for me, i have to pull my self together' 
failed effort.
as soon as i got up to wipe away the mini mascara waterfalls on my cheeks i saw a photo of me and Jake at the park together holding hands looking so happy.
i once again broke down in tears and collapsed onto my bed.
"what am i going to do" i groaned
and with one last little whimper i fell asleep


_{i know its long for a preface (i got carried away)
please give me feedback and whether i should carry on}