chapter
28:
The hardest thing is to see
someone you love,
get wheeled out of a hospital room.
Covered in a white sheet, head to toe.
I wasn't crying.
I wanted to cry more than anything,
but I couldn't.
The tears wouldn't come out, not here, not now.
Emily and I stood side by side, at 5 in the morning,
watching with a firm grasp on each others hands.
I had never seen her cry so much,
even after seeing her completely break down after
watching the notebook.
My mom raced back to that day,
when Emily and Noah were going out for about a year then.
I had my friends over, and we were watching the notebook,
and she joined, forcing Noah to watch too.
I remember the pout on his face, and when he would roll his
eyes
whenever there was some corny kiss.
I looked up from the floor,
racing back into the present,
and watched my parents follow the doctor out of the room.
Emily turned to me once the hospital had fallen completely
silent.
"You're strong, you know." She said.
I nodded, still not crying.
I wasn't strong, truthfully.
Inside, my head was pounding, my heart was racing,
and tears just swelled up into a massive lake in my eyes,
but I never let them leave.
Emily hugged me.
She leaned her head down on my shoulder and I let her cry
there.
I patted her back like I've seen people do in movies.
My parents came back in, dreadful.
"We're going home." My dad mumbled. "And
tomorrow morning mom
and I are going to the funeral home, where Noah is going
now." He teared.
My mom was silent, and as white as a ghost.
My fathers hair was messy, and so were his eyes from
crying.
I nodded, gathering my things.
I looked at my phone that was still off.
Adam's probably fine. I don't need to call
him.
I stuck it into a pocket in my bag, where I forgot about
it.
My mom walked over to the small night stand where my
brothers
clothes were still in a bag.
He never got to leave the hospital to wear them.
Inside was his favorite pair of sneakers,
and a tight black tshirt he always wore around Emily.
I watched my mom painfully pick up the bag, and place it
into her large pocket book where she had snacks saved for
him.
She turned around.
"Emily, would you like to come to our house
tonight?" She asked.
Emily looked up where she stood in the entrence.
"I don't want to bother you tonight, I'm sure
you want to be alone." She sighed.
"It's fine. We'll bring you home in the morning
on the way
to the funeral home." My dad tried to force a smile.
"Thank you." She said back meaningfully, but with
no expression on her face.
My mom checked out of the hospital,
where all the nurses acted like they actually cared.
But I figured they had seen so many people pass away, it
became a routine.
The whole car ride to the house was silent.
I listened to the sound of the tires against the
roadways,
and the sound the pedals made when my dad's foot hit
them.
We got back to a quiet house, with no lights on.
All I wanted to do was sleep.
When we got in, I immediately took off my shoes and started
up the stairs.
"Goodnight." I said to everyone, who barely even
looked up at me.
I ignored their answers, and went into my room.
I didn't even change, brush my teeth, or comb my messy
hair.
I just laid in bed without going into the covers,
or fixing my pillow until I was comfortable.
I laid, staring at the ceiling.
And forced myself to sleep,
and hoped I'd wake up from this nightmare.
10 faves · 1 comments · Feb 15, 2012 5:44pm
amanddaaa1231 · 1 decade ago
awwww . more tonight ?
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