IF YOU REALLY KNEW ME

you would know that the smile on my face is fake.
you would know that ive been hurt one to many times.
you would know that im scared to wake up and go to school because im scared of people making fun of  me.
if you really knew me you'd know that i have made mistakes and im trying to fix them.
if you really knew me you'd know ive suffered from a eating disorder.
you'd know im in love with a guy that will never love me back.
you would know that i stopped believing in myself.
you would know that i stopped trying to be pretty because nothing has worked.
 you would know that i lost all my friends to bullies or boys.
you would know i have 4 true friends. and i dont even know they are true friends.
you would know that my family is important to me eventhough they drive me insane.
You would know all that and many more.
BUT
you don't know me, so stop juding me.