I need to get this out so maybe I can let it go
I hate this. I hate the feeling of being empty. But the place I
don't feel it is with you. But you know how I feel and you
don't return the feelings, and it KILLS me to be around you and
know I'm insignificant to you. I've tried so hard for so
long to let you go but deep down I relaly don't want to.
You're what I've always wanted, what I may always want. But
I need to move on, I know I have to. But i can't. I miss you.
Twenty minutes after seeing you I miss you because I have so much
fun with you, I'm myself.
I don't think like normal people,I know everyone is unique and
sees things differently but mine is usually out of the realm that
people can even understand and I feel like such an outsider half
the time because I see all these things and people just look at me
like I'm a freak.
I try not to put on a fake smile, i try to make it real but lately
I've just wanted to put off what I feel so I don't have to
deal with it. I can't even explain this I just feel
empty.
I'm starting to like a new guy and I know it's probably
just pointless but honestly right now I don't care. He's
distracting me. Given me somehting to smile about. I just feel
empty, and the few places I feel that its better is with you, or at
church, or with my best friends in the world Lea, Brittany,
Mitchell, and David. I just want to get back the piece of me
that's missing.
Pierce I want to get over you. But I know I probably won't for
a long time. It tears me apart inside to think of not even being
friends with you. I know we're still friends but the way you
rejected me hurt.
There are just some nights where you feel weak.
One of my friends told me I'm the storngest person she knows. I
wish I could live up to that but lately all I feel is weak.
beautiful_girl26 · 1 decade ago
Awwe darling:( Im sorry. Let me just tell you that you are strong and even if you dont see it yet you are. And rebemember you are strong enough to make it through the day so you must be doing something right:)
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