Chapter Fourteen

When I got to the car, I banged my head against the steering wheel, a spare tear running down my cheek.
Why did I turn him down?
Did I really love Hunter? I had only known him for two days.
Sure, I liked him, but did I love him?
I rubbed my temples, mentally scolding myself for letting myself fall in love with two people.
I had never thought I would fall in love with one guy, let alone two.
I ran a hand through my hair and turned the key and drove off.  
When I got home I turned on my laptop and got on facebook.
I had added Matt and Hunter already, and I looked on their walls.
Matt's most recent action was to change his relationship from Dating to It's Complicated.
I sighed, then looked at Hunter's.  His status was the same.  I closed the computer.  What had I gotten myself into?
Then I did the only thing I could think to do. I turned on my IPod dock to full blast and hopped in the shower.
"Aftermath" by Adam Lambert came on, and I let the tears flow down my cheeks.  I let the water pound against my face, and my mascara flowed down my face.  When I turned to let it hit my back, I saw my razor.
A horrible thought flew through my mind, and I stumbled out of the shower.
Then I sat, naked, on the tile floor, sobbing.