Chapter 29.
All it's ever going to be.
section 2 "The Years to come."
a whole year and a half has gone by since that
night; yet its been the only thing clear in my mind for a long
time. I knew justin deserved a better life than me so i told him
"No." it broke my heart as i saw all the color drain
from his face and the disgusted look that replaced his anger. He
told me he never wanted to see me again, and i agreed, if only he
knew i meant myself, not him. My mother and i left canada that
next weekend, without saying goodbye. shortly after we returned
home my mother tried to get involved in my life like pattie had
taught her too, but all i did was reject her attempts to be a
family, and we both turned into nothing but empty shells of who
we once were. My friends tried to contact me often after that
first month, but soon i had sucessfully pushed away everyone in
my life who gave a damn. 10 months later tabloids posted pictures
of him, in Rehab for a suspected drug addiction; thats when my
drinking began. And that just about sums up all thats happened in
the past year and a half except for Caleb. i met caleb about a
month ago in a bar that doesn't check Id's. Hes two years
older than me, which makes him the ripe old age of 18, another
thing my mother and i cant seem to agree upon. Caleb's
and i have been hanging out lately and he seems to be pretty
chill, but sometimes im too drunk to care not to mention notice.
i havent slept with him though, thats one thing i've made
clear. i will never sleep with anyone again, after justin, it
hurts too much to even think about going that far only to have
your heart ripped out by your self in a foolish attempt to save
the one you love... anyways i try not to think of that, as i
already said, i just try to num it out, that and the rest of
humanity...
ITS BEEN SO LONG! GOSH I HAVENT WRITTEN SINCE
THE BEGINNING OF SUMMER!!! I'M SORRY!! I HOPE YOU LIKE
IT.......... THINGS HAVE TAKEN A VERY DARK TURN......... EVEN
THOUGH EVERY BODY HAS PROB FORGOTTEN ABOUT THIS STORY.....
I'LL TRY TO REBUILD A FANBASE.......AND YEA, IT'S TALKING
ABOUT JUSTIN BIEBER, INCASE YOU HAVEN'T
NOTICED..... <3 YOU ALL
5 faves · 2 comments · Nov 16, 2011 6:13pm
secretsummerlover
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1 decade ago
hahahah exactly what happened to mee.. ;) this is really good!!!
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MirMir12 · 1 decade ago
Write moreee!
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