~On this
road of feelings…
It all started out as a shock. I felt like
he was the one. The one? Yes, that one, the one who would be my
everything, and all I think about now I don’t know how I
feel. I feel I have been foolin’,
smacked in the face, and just like any other girl he has ever
talked to. Every night I wonder what I am to him. Do I matter? Do
you think about me? I know he can never be mine, that’s what
bothers me, how we can never be, or proceed in life; or go farther
than what we are now. I always wonder why we never met and what
would have happened if we did. One thing that I always think about
is two important dates. 5/8/11(the day I felt worth his time, and I
felt like I was meant to be put in his heart. 6/16/11(The day when
I realized he doesn’t deserve me.I’m
happy for him, and his decisions, even if I don’t support
them fully. I feel like we walked a road, and in the beginning I
thought we would make it to our destination and he wouldn’t
turn back. On this road i honestly saw that he cared about me, but
always met new people. One thing I’ve learned, out of this
kayotic experience is that don’t try
to help a person if they’re not going to help their selves.
But in the end I came to the conclusion that,” I’m
happy you’re happy; even if I’m not the one making you
smile.
~On this road of feelings… It all started out as a shock.
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