I Know its long.. But its
worth it...
Hii Mommy.! ...I'm your baby. You
don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're
going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you
some things about me. My name is Jocelyn, and I've got
beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet,
but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child,
and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up
without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each
other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow
up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you
couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was
smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It
will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the
best thing I see in my life. I know it already. ... ... ... ... ...
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him
about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I
don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk
about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I
don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so
it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I
could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect
me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then,
Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me
feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged
you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It
wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I
don't like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new
clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have
the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is
when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So
safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be
perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you
with all of my heart.
I can move
my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on
your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you,
Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was
acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't
want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he
hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I
won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad.
I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think
he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He
doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't
talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you
still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The
only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of
curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel
safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're
awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me?
We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new.
I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a
doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope
you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.
...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but
I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to
you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really,
really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I
will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop!
It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them
stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the
angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's
called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why
did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I
did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all
of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve
what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really,
really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me.
Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy!
I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and
grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to
love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak. Stop
Abortion.
I Know its long.. But its worth it... Hii Mommy.! ...I'm
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Sep 25, 2011 1:47am
JustSomeone · 1 decade ago
she didn't. she's selfish.
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