Hidden Behind the Smile
Chapter 29; September
10th,2011
I woke up the next morning around 10:30, I went to get my nails
done around 11:30, and then I went right to the first football
game of the season. They were crushing the other team, so we left
at half time. Albie was sitting behind me with his friends, and
they went to go play football when we left. I saw this girl that
he's friends with, Julianna. Julianna is who invited him
somewhere else last night, and they walked under the bleachers
and I saw her run toward them. That bothers me, but I can't tell
him not to hang out with her. I'm sure that after the game they
hung out, and I didn't really care, because I went to Anna's
house with Avery, Stephanie, Hope, Lauren, Kayla, and Taylor. We
got pizza and talked about everything, because we don't see a lot
of eachother during school anymore. It was a fun day and night, I
went home and decided to write for therapy, which is now slowing
down because of school. I wrote a lot about Louis tonight, which
made me cry a lot. I haven't cried as often as I used to though,
so that's good. I haven't thought about cutting lately, either. I
guess now I'm dealing with all of my feelings and I'm realizing
that it's apart of life, which is helping me. I wrote the rest of
the night, and I fell asleep with a pen in my hand and my
notebook close to me. When I woke up, the last thing on my paper
was, "I took the knife to my wrist... and the pain was
incredible. I was scared of myself..."
That is so true, after I cut myself, I was so scared of myself,
but it took away so much pain from Louis, so I continued. No
matter who told me to stop, I wouldn't, until Louis came to me in
my dream.
*sorry, couldn't really think of much more... i'll write soon
when i have more ideas...*
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