Nobody wants to revisit a traumatic past. .
nobody        wants              to              revisit           the             affects          of          pain         and         depression.
because,      at      the       time     of     this    trauma,     you're     brain    reaches     its      capacity    to     function,
it's         damaged,      and       so       is       your       soul.          the        world      blurs     out       into      a          fog
&our eyes become thin veneers of our pained souls & the last connection to reality we really have.
Ultimately,       we       become       zombies,       getting       by       in       life   ,      but     not      actually     living
because   we've allowed ourselves   to  withdraw  mentally  and  dig  ourselves   into  a  deep  ,  hollow  emptiness,
to        be         eaten       alive     by     the     demons        within       us.
We     begin   to    stop   giving   ourselves   the   privilege   to   live.  We   block  out   our  opportunities. We   hide.
 We cower from the trauma and try avoiding it; in hopes that  one day things can go back to          normal again; 
We try to forget.                                                      And so we claim to not remember it, but really no one wants to.
We       try      to    convince    ourselves    it    didn't    happen    and   that  we're   okay,   that   everything's    fine
but                 it           did            and           its there,            tucked far,           deep           within         ourselves,
In a dark corner of our circular memories.