so
last night i was on the phone with my boyfriend
and
out of nowhere he said "you know what really
hurts?"
and i
go "what?"
and he
said "the fact that you used to hurt yourself almost daily.
i couldn't bear to see you in so much pain."
i
replied "well you know i'm done with that, it really
doesn't help even though it feels like it
does."
and he
said "just think about it. someone you love, someone
you care about so much, someone that's your world,
cutting themself.."
and i
said "i know, that's the main reason i stopped. i
noticed it was effecting everyone around me that
knew about it.
if i
found out you were cutting i would feel horrible. i know, i
know how you feel."
and i
hear his voice crack as he says "i'll be right
back."
when
he put the phone down i heard him sniffling and knew that he was
crying.
he
came back and i said right away "hey are you
okay?"
and he
said "yeah, can we just talk about something
else?"
i can
only imagine how he would be if i still cut.
i'm glad i'm done.
