I don't think you realize,
how hard
it is to be completely in love with a boy
who's father committed suicide just over 3 months ago.
knowing there is not one thing that you can do or say
to make him believe it wasn't his fault, or that it's
not
true his father didn't love him enough to stay.
it's hard for
him to be in a committed relationship because his father
is ALWAYS on his mind. he tries but it's too much to
handle.
then you're left, a little hurt pushed off to the side; but
you
know it's nothing you did.. and you can't be mad
because
think about what he's going through. nobody will ever
understand his pain. and here I am, caring for him more
than anyone else in my life. really feeling just as much
pain for him with my heart-
out on my sleeve.
