This is just a vent, thank you
to anyone who reads it.
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You just
don't understand. I wait all day for a text from you, even
if its just a simple "hey". I want to cry every
single day. But I told myself, that from now on, you will have
to text me first. You will have to make the attempt to talk to
me. That from now on, no matter how hard its going to be, I
have to pull away. I'm so attached right now, and if we
break up, I'm going to be a wreak. I need to be strong, and
keep reminding myself that its going to be okay. You don't
understand how hard this is for me. From now on, I'm going
to stop holding all of my feelings in. I'm going to express
myself. And when you ask "What's wrong?", I'm
going to tell you straight up how I feel. Because the truth
hurts, but it's better then the "nothing" lies.
Never ask me if I'm okay again, because if you have to ask,
I'm obviously not okay. This is not what 'love' is
supposed to feel like. This is not how our relationship was
supposed to turn out. And now I'm just ranting about how
upset I am with you. But you know what? I kind of feel better.
I think I need to start doing this more often.
I still love you, I just pray to God that you still love me
too.
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Thank you so much if you just read all of
that, it really does mean a lot to
me.
205 faves · 22 comments · Jan 18, 2011 7:31pm
happidancer_330
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1 decade ago
feeling the same exact way </3
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beastgirl5555
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1 decade ago
Omg thanks so much for the support :) its nice to know that we are not alone :) and guess who texted me after not hearing from him after 2 day? Yeah :) im so happy right now. Hang in there girls. Everything will work out :)
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ashleyybabiix3
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1 decade ago
i'm really hoping that it can work out between me and him...i'm so broken right now, but he did not take the best of me, i know i'm stronger than that. so don't let him take the best of you. i can't seem to accept the fact that its over...aka my profile picture not changing..i don't have the strength to. it's so damn hard. :( but i'm trying to stick to my word and understand i loved him more than he loved me..and that's not right.i spent so much time crying over him. i truly do love him, and it's the worst feeling in the world. But i wish the best for you and your guy ♥ What's meant to be will happen..
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msmandy9
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1 decade ago
Story of my life right now ;(
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ilovehimX1022x
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1 decade ago
youngkrush14... you went through that and you've been together for that ling. I guess it turns out different for certain people. so I guess we shouldn't think the worst if what could happen. just try to make things better and fix what we can. you dint know how much better I felt when unread these comments. thanks girls you mean so much
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youngkrush14
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1 decade ago
aawww.. idk why im so emotional now, but i cried wen i read this:'( this is how me &my boyfriend were at first. now we got almost two years together &everythinq is as close to perfect as it could get. . you do have to open up more to them. we (girls) sometimesz tend to think guys got a very small brain. lol but they really dont.. they could be there for you if you let them be
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beastgirl5555
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1 decade ago
:) i know, most guys are douche bags....i thought i had finally found one thats not, guess i was wrong :/ but i will some day :) and you will too :)
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ashleyybabiix3
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1 decade ago
You're definitely NOT the only one going through this. Never feel like you are..it's okay about my break up...i mean i'm not too okay but like we've said..we will get through it and there will be days where we're thankful for the that broke our hearts. Oh and you're welcome (:
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beastgirl5555
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1 decade ago
Awww thanks so much for that long comment :) it makes me feel like I'm not the only person going through this. Im sorry about your break up :( but you are right, we will all get through it :) once again, THANK YOU!!!!! You girls are all amazing!!!!!
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Shannie123
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1 decade ago
awwhhh its okk<3 were all here foor you! if yuu ever want to ventt yu can writee on my page(:
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ashleyybabiix3
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1 decade ago
i can't tell you how much this relates to me. it's crazy how many people are going through the same thing. my boyfriend(now ex) acted the same way..i was so scared he was going to break up with me...and he did. But, i'll get through it..we all will when we go through break ups. It's hard when they're your first love...its SO hard. i've been a mess since Sunday. But you know what, if he doesn't love you back, there is no way in hell that he deserves you. you need a relationship where the feelings are mutual and he loves you just as much as you love him. Don't settle for anything less ♥ i need to be telling myself this too. stay strong hun ♥
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xthatsnotmynamex
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1 decade ago
BAH, i know how you feel. i'm here if you need someone to talk to. :)
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beastgirl5555
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1 decade ago
Yeah i know. Im trying to keep myself from thinking about it. Thanks :)
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xxbribabexx9
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1 decade ago
aww. i know how you feel; im going through the same thing . aw . but dont think that yous are gonna break up ; because that just brings your mood down even more.
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ilovehimX1022x
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1 decade ago
awww I mean yes of course I care about him, I care about him a lot, and I know he still cares about me too. but something just isn't the same anymore. the way I look at it, is that it's just a stage, that we will get through it and it won't hurt us, only make us love each other more. and I hope the same happens for every other girl in this situation
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beastgirl5555
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1 decade ago
awww, i know :/ i even tried telling him how i felt. his reply? "its not summer anymore. i have other things to worry about, they you." so you know what? from now on, he needs to make the attempt to talk to me, because I'm sick and tired of always starting the conversations, and getting nothing out of them. Deep down I think that we are going to break up, I hope he proves me wrong </3
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CambriAnnx13
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1 decade ago
story of my life<3 you made me feel that i'm not alone... thanks(:
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beastgirl5555
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1 decade ago
Hahaha :) i bet a lot of girls feel this way. Im just going through a really tough time right now, as you can see :p
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crazyasacannibal123
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1 decade ago
Heyy.
Gimme myy diaryy backk whenn yourr donee with ittt.
-thanks(:
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beastgirl5555 · 1 decade ago
hang in there girls, its gonna work out :) you guys have helped me so much, and last night, when we finally talked, i couldn't stop smiling. without everyone's comments and encouragement, i could probably never do that. so for the millionth time, THANK YOU :D
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