Welcome to the Jungle
part 13.
Haley's POV still
i know this is very sad.. but.. it explains Haley's
Story..
i walked out of English fast and walked to lunch. i was looking
down holding my 5 Subject notebook against my stomach like i was
holding on to it for dear life.. which i was. i arrived in lunch
and quietly sat the book down then my bag next to me on the bench
then sat down.
"you look like your about to break down.. do.. you need
anything.. we can go to the bathroom or something.."
Susie said worried.
"
im. ill get over it.. its ok." i said
quietly.. she just nodded nervously..
"Haley.. you walked out of English so fast i
didn'
t even have time to get out of
my chair.. are you
alright.."
Carly
asked.
"ill get over it.." i sighed.
im guessing
ill be saying this a lot today.
"what happened.."
Susie asked. i nodded
towards
Carly.
"i.. have no clue. but in English we watched footage of the
9/11 attack.. like.. real footage.. and stuff. and our
assignment tonight is to write about it. and how it
makes us feel. and our views of it."
Carly said.
hearing it again felt like a kick in the gut.
"oh..
wh.. Haley.. did.. someone.. die..."
Susie said slowly.. i just nodded once..
"oh my god.."
Carly said very
quietly and covered her mouth. i just sat on my hands
and looked out the window to my right. and saw some kids walking
around the parking lot and walking towards the lunch room.
"Hey.." Castro said sitting with us. his friends
following. i just moved against the window.
"is she ok... are you ok.. wait.. why are you all
upset.." Max asked looking at the three of us..
"shes not ok..
im not ok.. were all not
ok.."
Carly said through her hands
"why. what happened.." Max asked clueless. i just nodded
once to
Carly.
"Haley.. lost. a family member.. at ground zero.. and.. we
just.. feel her pain.."
Carly said slowly
"oh man.." Castro sighed shocked
"who.."
Max asked gently
"my mom." i said and looked down
"and my brother.. who was
visiting my mom.."
i added
"but... wait.. you have.. i mean.. had.. two brothers?"
Max asked
"yeah.. Jeff's twin Sammy.." i said. a tear rolled
down my face.. i whipped it away
"awh.." Susie said
"if you don't mind me asking.. wheres.. your dad."
Castro asked.. the common question after i explain this story.
"after my mom and brother died.. he got into a alcohol
addiction so now hes in some part of Up State New York at a rehab
center. and Jeff went into Therapy after Sammy. this year is gunna
be his 6th year.." i said
"and.. what about you.." Susie asked quietly..
"me. well.. i just had a cutting problem.. but.. its gone
now.. its been done for three years.." i said. lie.
"where's your uncle.. i mean.. you only live with your
Aunt, and Jeff.." Carly asked
"well.. my mom was his daughter.. his only daughter.. his only
child.. and.. the death of her.. hit her the hardest.. and.. he..
committed suicide.. during his job.." i said looking in my
lap..
"oh my god!" Susie said shocked and covered her mouth.
the guys were just looking at me with tons of sympathy in there
eyes. Carlys head is on the table. and Susie is looking at me with
wide watery eyes and her hands covering her mouth. the bell rang
what felt like extremely faster then usual. the day continued also
faster then normal. i walked home alone.. no reason.. i just left
before Susie and Carly and went a different way home. when i got
home i sat my books upstairs. todays Wednesday. i have Thursday and
Friday off for the Jewish holiday then the weekend. i looked on one
of my many cork boards. this one im looking at is the tribute board
to Mom, Sammy and Uncle Reggie. i starred at it for 10 minutes.. my
eyes jumping from picture to picture. then i looked at one of my
mom's many angel statues that she had in our old house that i
took with me the day me and Jeff were told to move in with our god
mother. and significantly in-graved on the base of the statue is
"i'll be there." on a gold plate. more tears started
coming down.. more then i could tame so i got in the shower and
just stood there letting the cold water run on my hot teary face..
and stood there till i got goose-bumps. then switched to the hot
water and took a normal shower. before i turned it off i just stood
there in front of the water again letting the water run down on my
face until i felt calm again.