Where i need to be part 21
Brandon and Allie. Allie and Brandon. Kissing? In the stables? No
this couldn't be happening. But the smell of horses, the
feeling on Mary Lou's arm on mine, and the slight throbbing in
my ankle brought me back to reality. And as unbelievable as it was,
and terrible. Allie and Brandon kissing in the stables was my
reality. My hand went to my throat. I could feel the lump in
my throat growing bigger and the tears on the brink on
overflow.
Brandon threw Allie off of him. "What the hell do you think
your doing Allie!?!?" he yelled. He looked at me and all the
anger he had just shown melted away into pure sorrow. Or was it
guilt?
"Scarlett, baby, I'm so sorry you had to see that.
It's not what you think i swear. Scar!" he yelled after me
as i tore off running. I didn't care that my ankle hurt, i
didn't care if he was or wasn't coming after me. I just
needed to get away. Away from my reality.
I kept running. I didn't want to stop. Or I couldn't. I ran
down the road, away from the house and towards the beach where Luke
tried to... i didn't want to think about that either. I just
wanted to run.
I came to the beach and never stopped. I ran down to the shore
line. Then i stopped and sat down. The waves were crashing into me
and it seemed as if they were trying to knock me right over. like
everyone else today had. My cheeks were wet from either tears or
the ocean spray. All of my thoughts were racing through my head
like a train. Round and round.
How could he? Why? I thought... I thought he loved me. He
promised me. Swore to me in kindergarten that he wouldn't ever
let me cry. Well screw that! Suddenly i could hear footsteps behind
me. O jeez. If it was Brandon... well i don't know what i would
do. I stood up. Brushed myself off as well as i could, took a deep
breath and turned around. I got the suprise of my life.
"Michael?" i said completely shocked. I thought i was
going to see Brandon. But no i just saw my 14 year old cousin.
"Yup! Thats me! I saw you running and i followed you. I like
it out here don't you?" He said plopping down on the
ground. Lacy had mentioned that Michael had autism and was
socially awkward and had a hard time talking and interacting with
people.
"Yeah... its- nice." i said sitting down next to him.
"Why are your cheeks wet Scarlett? Hey that rhymes!" he
said reaching up and touching my face.
"I was crying Michael." i said. He put his hand down.
"Mommy cries a lot. When i ask her why shes tells me its cause
her baby boy is going away. Scarlett where is Tom going? And why
can't i go with him?" he said his lower lip protruding and
his eyes sparkling with tears.
"He's going to college Mike. And don't worry he'll
visit! And maybe you can go and see him!" i said putting my
arm around him and giving him a hug. The autism had made his
emotional and mental abilities limited, so he had the capabilities
of about a 5 year old.
"But why were you crying Scarlett?" he said looking up at
me.
"Because i was sad."
"But you're getting married! You cant be sad!" he
said sitting up fully. There it was. What i had been thinking all
along had been thrown out in the open. Was i going to get
married?
"I don't know if that's going to end up happening
buddy..." i said in all honesty.
"But why?!?!" he starting to cry.
"Sweetie its- its hard to explain..." i said pulling him
into another hug. I held him there for what seemed like
hours. My own tears mixed with his as i started to
cry.
Where i need to be part 21 Brandon and Allie. Allie and Brandon.
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Sep 2, 2010 12:04am
