Where i need to be part 20 ( this is kinda like looking into Scarlett mind. To be continued. lol ive always wanted to say that :))

"O wow." i said breathless. I could here my family murmuring behind me. Now before i tell you my answer lets review the situation. I had to do this very fast keep in mind. Ok so my boyfriend of 12 hours just asked my to marry him. You know the whole death do us part stuff. BUT! He and I have been in love for like 7 years, just we never said anything. I love him so much and he's my best friend in the enitre universe. Right now youre probably thinking oh my gosh! shes totally gunna say yes! Not necessarily. Lets look at the other things going on here.  And here i'm going to be as logical as humanely possible. Um im 18. I'm going to college in the Fall, do i really want to be married when I'm out clubbing? Not that I'd really ever go, but its a thought! I'm 18. Am i really ready to have to take care of like a house? and who knows if we can even afford an apartment? and the wedding? And kids???? like don't those things cost like a shitload of money? ughh. now youre probably thinking oh no! poor Brandon! shes gona say no! NO! i am not going to say no, necessarily. I mean im like 98 percent sure he's the love of my life, but heres yet another thing, i haven't dated anyone else. so i have nothing to compare this whole thing to. But im sure i wouldn't be able to live another day without Brandon by my side. But what kind of marriage would we have if i'm living my parents and he's living with his because we can't afford to live on our own? and i dont exactely have a job right now. and hes got a job at a coffee place. not much pay there and no health care. thats another thing? bills?taxes? were done for. So right now my pros and cons list is looking pretty unbalanced. but heres the thing, ive always believed that true love conquers all. no matter what the circumstances, love will always trump the other option. but what if the other option is the logical one? logic vs. love. the world's most pondered battle