It's been eight
months.
I'm still not over my first
true love.
Three days after meeting him,
and starting to date him, we were going to break
up.
I tried all I could to convince
him to not break up with me.
I knew that he would've
killed himself that night, because he had no one else to
trust.
What impacted on me, is that he
let me into his life - he decided to trust me.
I lost his trust that night, but
he gave me a second chance.
We were the happy couple, that
everyone wanted to be.
He disappeared after a month,
and I just waited.
Waited.
Waited.
I thought he killed
himself.
For two months, I went through
life, crying every few days, thinking he was gone.
That's when I realized I
truly loved him, and didn't want to lose it.
I cried my eyes out at school,
because of him.
After a few more weeks, I talked
to his mom.
She said she'd have him talk
to me.
That sentence made my heart skip
a beat.
It let me know he was still
alive.
What ruined it for me, though,
was that he didn't talk to me.
I just thought that he'd
forgot about me, and didn't care about me
anymore.
A few more months down the line,
I get a message saying "hello," from him.
I responded to it.
Never got a message
back.
I met him around Christmas of
2009.
We stopped talking at the end of
January.
It's now August 24th,
2010.
I still haven't moved
on.
I'm waiting for the day for
when I do, and then meet the person that I'm meant to be
with.
I still cry about him,
though.
I miss him.
I still love him.
I guess it's true - you
never stop loving your first love.
I just want to,
though.
Get him out of my
mind.
I'm sorry for
venting.
xxRosexxThornxx · 1 decade ago
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Awww, Liz. He doesn't deserve you. He just went away. You deserve someone special. :)