*carefree*
part one
i
walked in the classroom, holding onto my fathers shirt, wrinkled,
and dirty from work, i looked up at his big brown eyes, and his
plain frown, that i was used to ever since last november. i
was 5 years old, i remember, and i remember walking into that
pre-K classroom and looked around, alot of kids, my age, then a
lady came over tall, blonde and smiled a toothy smile.
"Welcome, to Just Right Child Care." she said to
my father and reached out her hand, "I'm Anne."
my dad stared at her hand for a second, he was in a daze.
Probably thinking of my mother again. "Uhmm, uhh, hi,
umm, I'm Stanley." and he reached out his long arm and I
looked at his tatoo on his arm, a name, my mother's
name. ♥julia♥ and
under that in bold letters it said : forever and always. I wanted to run out of that
big obnoxious classroom and run to the cemetary and sit at her
grave and cry, for the rest of the day, but i just couldn't do
this to my dad, he was pulling it together, why couldn't I?
"Uhmm, this is my girl, Jacy, Jacy say hi to umm,
uhh.." my dad studderred. "Anne." she helped
him. " Nice to meet you Jacy." I looked up at her.
"Hi." I managed to peep. "Children, this is
Jacy, say hello to Jacy." Anne commanded. "Hello,
Jacy," they all chimed. "Umm, hi." I don't
like being the center of everyone's attention. "Jacy
you can go sit down on the carpet, there's an empty spot next to
Kaylee." she pointed to a little girl, around my age, with
long brown curls, she smiled a warm smile, a smile I hadn't seen
in 6 months. She was next to a blonde haired girl, who
looked shy and didn't smile, just stared. I crept over
towards the empty seat on the carpet, "Bye Jace, be good,
I'll be here at 6:00." He pecked a kiss on my cheek.
"Bye daddy." I sat down, "Hi! I'm
Kaylee." the girl with long brown curls extended her
hand. "And this is Emily." she said pointing to the
blonde, who still didn't smile. "Um,
hi."
After we sat on the carpet a while, we went outside, Kaylee
walked outside next to me, and Emily next to her. We walked
around, as she chattered, me listening half heartedly, just
smiling and nodding every few steps. We went inside after
half an hour, and went into a smaller classroom and sat on a
carpet, I sat next to Kaylee again. Then she asked me a
question I wasn't expecting at all, "Where's your momma?
Mines at work, she works at the high school!" she
smiled. I know she didn't mean it and didn't know, I had
held in my anger,frustration, and sorrow for too long. "In a
grave." I replied as calmly as I could. "My
momma's dead." I said, with a tear rolling down my cheek, I
looked at Kaylee's innocent sparkling green eyes, as they filled
up with tears. I had to get outta there. So with
that, I took off, ran straight outta that room, and didn't
stop down the street, and didn't stop, to look back or to catch
my breath, until I was at my destination, Wessagusset
Graveyard and I ran to the most beautiful grave, it
read across : IN LOVING
MEMORY OF JULIA
CAMPBELL, LOVING WIFE,LOVING DAUGHTER,
and LOVING MOTHER 1977-2002 R.I.P
I ran my fingers across
those words and rested my head against the plack for more than
three hours, until I saw a white car pull up, and I sighed and
turned the other way, getting ready to run again, run away from
all of my problems, like I always did, the way that I called
dealing with my problems. Running away.
Carefree.
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