sometimes, it
doesn't hurt that much.
i only want
you to be happy ,
and
i convince myself
it's all for
the
best. but then, too
often, i cry when
i need to start picturing my life
without
you by my side every step
of the way.
i get these
flashbacks. memories i try
to forbid myself
to remember. tears
randomly fill my eyes, no
matter where
i am, and i feel like everything is crashing
down and i just
can't take the pain
anymore. this is one of
those
times;
where
i just
can't
even breathe.
