This is what happens when you decide to stay friends with your ex,
the one person you love in the whole world:
him: what did i say that was so jerky?
me: Everything. Remember when we like got into arguments and i
would be the 1st one to apologize? well thats because i didnt want
to lose you as a friend. But gosh everytime i talk to you it feels
like u dont want to talk to me. Your like pushing me away. If your
not then i'm sorry but thats why it looks like. I use to be so
afraid that you would never talk to me. I use to think that losing
you as a friend would be the worst thing that could happen to me.
But now idk...