I hate this. I hate how we lie to ourselves and say that we can be together soon. Two years isn't soon, it's no where close. Over one thousand days of being over many miles apart... it's going to kill me. It is killing me. I miss you. I want to hold your hand, hug you tightly, kiss you, and goof off with you. I want to go to things with you, I want to be able to celebrate anniversaries. I want to see you and I mean actually see you. Not just looking at a computer screen as we Skype. I hate this and how we then say we'll be together soon. But at the same time, thinking I'll be able to be with you soon is the only thing keeping me from going crazy.