This quote doesn't have the prettiest format, actually, it's not formatted at all. But if you took time to read this; I love you. ♥
I know what I am about to say, not every single person can connect to, but it's just a vent.
I'm insecure. R e a l l y insecure. People tell me I'm pretty, but I can't imagine myself ever being anything close to that.
I'm battling anorexia. NO, none of my friends know this. But if they read this& realise it's me, they will. I try to eat as much as I can, but I just feel too fat. I need to lose weight. Fast.
Today makes exactly one month I've been clean of cutting. 3.4.12. ♥
I love my boyfriend. Alot. I don't care who says "You guys just got together" because we have a h u g e history. You just don't know it.
I miss Luis more than anyone I've ever lost.. No, you guys might not know Luis, but he was my bestfriend& "big brother".. Love got in the way. Now, he hates me& I'm just stuck sitting here, wishing he would come back into my life.
I miss Tre, so much. NO, I didn't know Rob. &Honestly, you guys might not even KNOW about what happened with Rob& Tre, but long story short, 17 years young, car accident, now they're both gone. Tre was my cousin& my best friend. I've gone c r a z y without him.
And lastly, I miss my dad. As of 9.26.05, he's been up in heaven, in a "better place" but honestly, I need him in my life.. He never wanted me in his life, &I only saw him once. He didn't even believe I was his. But I know, deep down, he loved me.. &I love him too. Drugs kill.
RIP Daddy, Rob, &Tre. ♥
If you took the time to read this... I love you. ♥
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