ANOTHER VENT:
me & him have always had a thing together, ever since we met in the summer. that summer was the best summer i've ever had. but over the summer my friends told me to just use him for money, because none of us really ever have any. even though he meant so much to me, i did it anyway. i guess i just really didn't think it threw. and you ended up finding out that i was just using you, and everything ended so quickly. then from september to december he wouldn't even speak to me. when he finally spoke to me, all we did was fight, and it was because we were so in love with eachother, but both of us were just afraid of being hurt. then we got into one big messy fight, screaming and yelling; and to be honest, i don't even remember what it was about. but all i know is he got so mad about it. but we stopped talking again because the fights were just killing both of us, and eating us up inside. but after we stopped talking it was different this time, cause i couldn't stand it. knowing it was all my fault, but there was nothing i could do about it. ever since we started talking again on march 25th , 2011 i havent even been able to think. i mean, i love him .. i love him so much that it's killing me.