it started off a bit of fun,
it grew with the laughter, the memories
but it became much more to you when he kissed you.
it felt like nothing matted,
like everything would magically fall into place, like a fairytale ending.
but it didn't did it?
then he throws a massive bomb shell at you.
it rips your heart right down the middle, because after the first time you got your heartbroken it messed you up.
it took loads for you to let him in and then he hurts you so bad,
you feel that lump in your throat ,
but you don't wont to cry and show him just how much he has in fact hurt you.
you bottle everything up because you feel like you cant talk to anybody because they just wont understand.
he has played you about so much , messed with your head, made you feel worthless.
but foolishly you still hold on,
throwing any self respect you still have for your self out with window.
but its just that something about him isn't it?
he makes you go weak when you see him, your heart beats so fast you feel sick , you get such an adrenalin rush.
but then you realize he wasn't even yours so hold.
he has played you.
used you.
and hurt you,
and he doesn't even care,
you hold on to something that has already left,
but its so hard for you isnt it?
its different this time even tho u no you don't love him, its just different,
you lay in bed reading sad love quotes, listening to depressing songs, because there the only thing that even being to
understand how you feel,.
and every single tear drop is just a reminder of how much he has hurt you.
but you carry on,
you fool everybody with your broken smile and lies.