sometimes, it doesn't hurt that much.
i only want you to be happy , and
i convince myself it's all for the
best. but then, too often, i cry when
i need to start picturing my life without
you by my side every step of the way.
i get these flashbacks. memories i try
to forbid myself to remember. tears
randomly fill my eyes, no matter where
i am, and i feel like everything is crashing
down and i just can't take the pain
anymore. this is one of those times;
where i just can't even breathe.