Forever
chapter 20
3 days down, 2 to go.
This was the first thing I said to myself when I woke up in the morning.
Well, after I ditched the chocolate icecream container and cleaned myself up.
The day before, I was a wreck.
Today, I kind of changed my perspective.
Today I thought to myself
Katie Mayberry! You are not going to cry about this. You're gonna deal with it! You can do it.
I believe in myself.
I slept on it and thought
Maybe talking to Blake isn't such a bad idea. I mean, I kind of need some closure.
Also, we haden't talked since the incident and deep down, I kinda wanted to hear what he had to say.
I had gotten up really early this morning. About 4am. I couldn't sleep so I just stayed up.
Then again, I went to bed pretty early too... without saying goodnight to anyone.
My mom checked on me and told the family I was exausted.
I knew people probably wouldn't get up til around 9 or 10 so I had a good 6-7 hours by myself.
Most of the snow had melted. It wasn't too much to begin with and it haden't snowed in days.
Therefore, I decided to go for a jog.
I stuck on some yoga pants, a long sleeved blue top, sneakers, a thick sweatshirt, a headband,
and finally, a pair of gloves.
Just because it wasn't snowing, didn't mean it wasn't cold.
By now it was about 6:30am and the sun was just creeping over the horizon.
It was still pretty dark though.
I crept to the top of the stairs and peered both ways.
No one was around. Normal people don't wake up at 4am.
I went back downstair and went out the basement door.
I didn't wanna wake anyone.
The cold shook me as I walked out the door. I tried to ignore it.
I started jogging around the block. I knew his neighborhood pretty well.
There was an giant, old oak tree on the far side of his neighborhood.
Sometimes, when we were visiting while the weather was nice, I would sit under it and read.
Sometimes, if Blake wanted to, he would accompany me.
We would laugh and smile under the sun, sitting in the bright green grass beside of each other.
I wanted to do that right now.
I wanted to be in his arms.
I wanted him to hold my hand.
Is that all gone? Gone forever?
I need to talk to Blake.
I have one question. One question, thats all. I just need the answer.
I finally reached the tree we used to sit under as kids.
I saw some bushes russel near the tree, probably the wind.
I ran over. I peered at the tree that brought back all the memories.
But something was different.
There was a new mark on the tree.
Someone carved something rather small.
I went over to read it.
It read "B.E. + K.M" with a heart around it.
It was dated December 26th of this year.
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