i need closure from you.
I just wanted to say that throughout the school year, I had a huge crush on you. There wasn't a moment when I wouldn't think about you. I remembered all the little things you did to me. Like put your arm around me when we walked down the hallway once at the end of the school day. How you put your arm around my shoulder in science. My face turned so red when you did that. And I remembered one time at the football game when you were going out with your girlfriend, you got down to my height and said Hey while looking at my eyes and lips. I could have kissed you, you were that close. Every time I saw you, I had butterflies. And my face turned bright red whenever you spoke to me. The main reason that I wanted to smoke was to be closer to you and seem "cool" in your eyes. To me, that's way too pathetic. And I couldn't see that. And you always use to talk to me when I wore that tight blue shirt and black yoga pants. I wore them just so I could talk to you. Do you know how embarrassed I am that I did that? I changed myself for you. You're not worth it and I wish I could have saved myself nine months of complete hell to realize that. I actually waited for your to talk to me on Facebook. I saw your name there but I was too shy to say two letter to you. Now it's like, you weren't worth the stress. I still shouldn't be thinking about you when I'm already happy with someone else. I just wanted to say all this so everything is out there and I'm not holding anything back inside. I know you never thought of me as the type of girl that was hot or pretty even though you said you wanted to hook up with me. So if you didn't want to do something, don't say you would. That really upset me. But I am happy with who I'm with now and I hope that you have a great life. I wish I actually meant something to you.
thank you to whoever read that vent. been keeping it in for too long.
Kyle and I - 7/10/11 . It's about time that I found the right guy. :]
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