Takethe Pain Away
Chapter 5
It hurt to see Brice hurting the way he was. But he knew it hurt me just as much. Our realtionship was just full of so much pain and hurt. Brice's foster mom walked in the front door while I was rubbing Brice's back and trying to soothe him. "Oh no. What happened this time?" she asked in concern.
"I'm a fricken monster." Brice spoke up for the first time since he'd looked out the window. Tracy knows that Brice hurts me, but she understands why and tries to help us with our relationship.
"Why did this happen again?" she calmly asked my boyfriend as she sat on an arm chair near the couch.
He frowned and shrugged his shoulders, "I blacked out again."
"And why did you black out?" she asked, out of concern, not anger.
"I-I was drinking," his head hung low.
"Brice why were you drinking?" she asked, dissapointment in her voice.
"I don't know!" Brice cried. I rubbed his back again, calming him a little.
"Brice we have to get to the root of the problem."
"I have flashbacks sometimes... of when my dad used to... beat me. That's when I drink. It makes me black out and then I don't feel anything. I don't feel the pain he caused me," his voice was weak and small. He started to cry again. One thing I loved about him was he wasn't afraid to show his emotions. But it also was bad, when his emotion was anger.
"Okay, this is good progress, Brice," Tracy said, then switched her gaze to me, " Emerson, I want to see what he did." I showed her everything he had done. "Okay good it's not as bad as it's been before. Have you iced your cheek yet?"
"No," I choked out. She got up and went to get an icepack.
"I'm so sorry I put you through this," Brice whispered so close to me I could feel his breath trickle down my neck.
"I'm not mad," I whispered back planting a soft kiss on his lips.