AubreeMae · 9 years ago
I don't understand how one day everything will be fine but the next day I wake up dreading the next hour to come.. Going to bed without you or hearing you tell me you love me is so hard. This past week has gotten the best of me. I'm just completely and utterly exhausted. The smell of you on your sweatshirt is fading, everything is changing and the world has completely moved on, whether I was ready or not. I like to think back on how you always said that you just couldn't wait to see Micah and I try to picture your face the day God called you home and the second you saw Micah again.. How happy you were and how full of joy and happiness your heart had to have been. You are my best friend and not one word any object in this world will ever express the love I have for you. You gave me the best experience of love that I'll never experience again and you gave me the best gift that nobody on this planet could have gave me. I know you'd be so overwhelmed with happiness on how beautiful and intelligent our little girl is. She has your beautiful blue eyes that are so full of life. She amazes me more and more every single day.
I just love you so much Caleb..
This world gets so lonely without your beautiful vibrant personality and gorgeous smile.
Heaven has gained such an amazing angel. Help me keep moving forward baby.. I need you.
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AubreeMae · 9 years ago
Caleb,
You were the only one to ever make me feel like you genuinely cared about my life, and what happened in it. And I need you right now, because everyone I try to talk to about how I am feeling is telling me to suck it up, or just deal with it, or to calm down. And it's not helping. I just need someone to let me cry, and not tell me to stop crying, or to "be strong." because it is seriously, to the point where I don't even know what all emotions I am feeling, or what the cause of them is, it's like all the pain I've ever felt in my entire life is coming at me all at once, and I'm trying to keep it together, but I know that if I don't let it all out soon, it's going to destroy me.
I'm tired of being strong, i'm tired of trying not to cry, I'm tired of waking up everyday, and wishing I didn't.
I am so tired, so freaking exhausted of just trying to look like I've got it all under control, when in reality, I can barely breathe from how much my heart is broken.
And I'm so angry with God- why did he take you when clearly we all still need you?
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AubreeMae · 9 years ago
Hey baby,
I know you're looking down at our little family and are so proud of how far we've come and how far we have to go and all the strength we've gained along the way. I thank God every day for giving my the best gift in my whole life and even more thankful that there is still half of you walking around and living in this world. She has your beautiful blue eyes and such a vibrant personality just like you did. She's growing up so fast. Time does fly by faster than you'd think.
It's so hard to wrap my mind around losing you. I have this terrible guilt inside of me that believes I didn't tell you I love you as many times as I could have. I always believed that there would be a tomorrow, another day to make up for what we lacked the day before. You really never know when it's your last day. Kenley and I love you to infinite and beyond.
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Crazy_Beautiful202 · 9 years ago
There isn't one doubt in my mind that you wouldn't be proud of how far Aubree and the little ones have come so far. It's crazy too think about you being gone for a year already. You were so outspoken and so easy to talk too with such great advice. I never understood the reason why God takes the most loved ones from us and leaves us feeling so empty and such a big void in our hearts. Kenley has your blue eyes and you can hear you in Braxton's laugh. Those two babes are so blessed to have had you as a daddy and it's so heartbreaking that you're not here to watch them grow up, but we all know that you're watching over them and keeping them out of harms way.
I hope Heaven is all that you have dreamed it would be. I can't wait to receive my spot up there when my time comes.
Rest In Heaven Caleb. You're missed by so many.
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
It's insane to think you've been gone for so long. We weren't too close up until the end. I still remember when you told me you asked Aubree to marry you, and i still remember how scared you were to become a daddy, yet so so excited. You're a good dad, i hope you know that, and you sure as hell made Aubree one lucky mommy. I really don't know what to say or why i'm writing this. I don't come on witty much anymore, in some way it stings. I miss all of the people i had on here, you were one of the rare few that i actually let know the real me. It's sad that you're gone. I imagined you being the best dad to your kids, and i imagined all of these pictures of you with them and just all of these stories. I remember when yu spoke of the wedding and you said i could come, i remember that day because you were so happy. You were one of the people who least likely deserved to die, you really were. You were so happy i wish i could have saved your life, you deserve to be here. I don't believe in god or anything after this life but for you i hope there is. I hope you get to see Aubree's smile, and i hope you see yoru children's shining eyes. I hope you get to know their laughs and you learn from them. in someways i forget that you aren't here, i forget you won't ever write back to this, i just play with my head and imagine you are off somewhere far too busy to respond to some random friend you made on a website. You had some rough times but you hung through them, i can't believe it's been so long, i wish this was all a joke. The good die young and you really were one of the best. Like i said i don't know why i'm writing this, it's not like you'll read it. But something about you, you always were there to listen. Thank you for being my friend even if it was for a short time, and i hope there is something out there, someplace where you are looking down at yoru beautiful family and smiling at them. You truely deserve all the world holds. Rest in Peace Caleb, i miss you. I'm sorry it's been so long since i've said anything to you, it's hard to come to yoru profile and see nothing has changed, it's hard to admit that you are gone. Rest in Paradise Caleb.
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
This is the only account that he has anymore. He had to get rid of his facebook the month Micah passed away from all the harassment he received on it and he never made a twitter or anything because he hated it. But I want you to know that Caleb is still here. He shows himself through his beautiful daughter who has his eyes and his smile. You know he's here the second he let's anybody know. I come on here all the time to read the quotes he wrote and to read the way he put his story. He was a great guy and I was so lucky to ever have the chance to experience all that I have with him by my side and you were able to have the honor of getting to know him as well. It's sad that his life ended this soon when he has to beautiful children but he shows himself each and everyday through them and I'm blessed for that. He hasn't forgotten anybody and he's watching down on everybody he cares about. Trust me. I know he wouldn't let anybody out of his sight.
You can always come on here and comment. It helps sometimes. And I love to read what people have to say about him. Honestly, it means more than you know to hear about how he's touched lives of others because that's all he's ever wanted to do. That was his biggest goal in life was to help others and change lives. He's be so happy to see what you needed to say. So please, come on here anytime you'd like too and talk about whatever you want to talk about because he knows and he listens.
Hang in there.
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
I'm at home, in my pajama's.. Begging God just to do this fast and to end the pain my dad is feeling.. The pain from all the treatments and from the cancer itself.. and It looks like Today is going to be the day my daddy is going to be called home.
Welcome him into the gates of Heaven, Caleb. Show him around and most importantly, show him where his son, my brother, has been for the past two years and how happy he is.
I know my brother was there to welcome you into Heaven, along with Micah.. Please do the same with my dad. This is the day he's been talking about for awhile now.
I love you so much, I miss you all so much.
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AlyssaLovesYou · 1 decade ago
OMG. I haven't been on witty forever. But we used to talk quite a bit when I was on here. You helped me through so much. I don't know what happened but you're missed so much Caleb. Watch over Aubree, Kenley and Braxton and the rest of your family as they need you. R.I.P bud. </3
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
I'm going to the candle lighting ceremony that is being held at RiverFront for Micah's one year tonight.. It's going to be a good feeling seeing everyone, but I just wish it didn't have to be on these terms. Losing Micah was devastating, I know.. But I was so close to losing you that night too.. I'm so thankful that I was blessed to spend the time I had left to spend with you. I couldn't have been able to handle the death of both of you at the same time.. It's extremely hard right now. /:
I know you're up there with Micah.. I hope you two look down and see how much of a impact your best friend made in everyone's life and how important you two are to everybody who sheds tears tonight and who all show up.
I love you so much Caleb. Rest In Heaven, Caleb & Micah.
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
I can't keep holding on any longer like this. I haven't gone through 24 hours since you've been gone without completely crying. You're on my mind no matter if i'm alone or if i'm with a million people. It tears me apart knowing I'm sitting next to my friends and they're all laughing and talking about the old times and I'm just sitting there holding every tear back and just feeling so uncomfortable. I really can't keep doing this. I can't breath knowing you're not breathing.. My heart breaks every beat that yours isn't.
I just need to see you, to hear you, to hold you. I'd give my own life to see you and it's been my thoughts lately and it's terrifying me because I can't leave Kenley,, But I need you.
Help me through this, Caleb.
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
Well baby, here I am with Kenley taking a nap because it's been a long morning.. It's father's day. The first thing I want to do is hold you so tight and look at the proud man you have become. It's so hard without you, I can't even begin to word it correctly in sentences to make it make sense, because it just doesn't. You being gone for so long and forever doesn't make sense. It's so hard to think about moving on because I feel like I'm going to forget you.. I'm going to slowly forget what your voice sounded like, I'm going to slowly forget your soft words when I needed them, the way your smile some day's seemed to light up the world. You know how much I love and miss my brother, it's been two extremely long exhausting years without him.. I get so mad at God for taking the two of the best people in my life.. It doesn't make sense to me whatsoever.
I really need you to watch over me Caleb because I've had really bad thoughts lately and I'm just scared for what the future holds for me.. Without having my best friend by my side through it all makes me not want to face anything at all. But I know you won't let anything to bad happen.
Happy father's day sweetheart. Kenley loves you and Braxton loves you just as much. They have one of the best daddies in the world.


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lautnerlover98 · 1 decade ago
Happy Fathers day, Caleb.
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RealityWreckage · 1 decade ago
Rest in peace Caleb.
You will forever be missed. You commented on my first top quote. You stayed so strong through everything. Rest in peace, Witty misses you!
Aubree, stay strong. Witty is here for you. xx
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
Thank you.

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RealityWreckage · 1 decade ago
Stay strong <3
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kendiee2 · 1 decade ago
I haven't been on Witty in forever. I come back, and youre gone. I didn't know you, and you left me a comment once, but I was always just reading what you had to say and commenting when I could, and now I feel horrible for not coming on in time for a final goodbye. Its shocking, and Im crying. I hope you know how much you mean to us. Seeing you have strength, gave me strength. And Aubree, Im so sorry. I love you, and youre strong and powerful. You can do this.
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
Just come home already.. ):
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Soccerchic15 · 1 decade ago
I haven't been on witty in forever. Today it randomly popped into my mind and you were the first person I thought about. I still can't believe you're gone. You were the main reason I used to get on here. I loved reading all your quotes. I loved reading about Micah, your beautiful daughter Kenley, and your gorgeous girlfriend Aubree. You stayed so strong through everything and were such an inspiration. I hope you're doing well up there Caleb (: Witty misses you!
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
He's missed in every way possible.
Thank you so much.

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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
Why do I feel like i'm crazy when I come and post on here.. Why is it when i see your pictures my stomach gets these twisted knots feeling and I get so upset.. Seeing you always made my stomach flip and butterflies would start up, I would always get this huge smile on my face.. Now, my stomach just twists and hurts so much when i see your face in pictures and tears stream down my face. Why does it to me feel so terrible because you used to tell me about this website and how much people have helped you through the things you were going through and how you told me to go on your account and check it out.. and I come on and it says the last time you were logged in was two months ago, when it should be today.. I feel like i'm going completely crazy without you here physically with me. I feel i'm constantly waiting for something that I know isn't coming. I have a beautiful daughter to live for and soon to be our baby boy. I can't even imagine your reaction would have been when you found out I was having a boy. You were such a great daddy and you were taken from that role WAY to early. but I'll make sure to tell Kenley and our little boy all the stories of the amazing man you've become and all the memories and just about the outstanding, strong person you were. They're going to be so proud.
I love you and ALWAYS will. Watch over us, Caleb.
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
I have to say.. Friday was crazy ride of emotion. It was the most I've ever felt like I wanted to cry my eyes out but at the same time laugh so loud, I wanted to scream out in joy that I've finally made it to graduation after how many times I swore I wasn't going to be and got all upset or I was going to just be depressed. The whole gym was packed with people and there wasn't enough chairs to have everyone be sitting, people were standing off on the side of the isle. The way my heart just started racing when Mr.Stienmentz called my name for me to get up and walk across the stage for him to hand me my diploma. I was shaking so bad I thought I was going to drop it on the floor. The way I couldn't stop smiling when my name was called that's when so many people were cheering and clapping. Our class was sitting all together and they played the slide show, with all of everyone's baby picture and then following that was their senior picture. With our class song and just a bunch of pictures collected up from the past 4 years of high school. The principle lit two candles in memory of You and Micah. Micah's baby picture was on the slide show along with his senior picture and the second his name was read across the screen, the whole gym was cheering and clapping and wooing. I could hear sniffling from both sides of me coming from a few of our classmates. Your pictures came up after Bradleys.. Your baby picture and one of my ultimate favorite senior picture of you right after and the whole gym starting clapping and cheering. A few pictures came up of when our senior class held that car wash for fundraising and the pictures that were taken from that. At the end of the slide show the lights came on and I witnessed literally hundreds of people crying. I witnessed teachers crying. Parents crying. My classmates crying. I realized, after looking all around at all the emotion being shown from so many different people, I wasn't the one crying.. This weird feeling came over me and my thoughts completely drown out the rest of the ceremony and it was the weirdest thing.. I felt this rush of sadness and quickly after I felt a rush of happiness.. I realized I've spent so much time feeling like I'm the only one that has struggled through these losses and that's actually lived in this hurt for almost a year while everyone else was up and moved on. I witnessed TRAVIS SEIBEL, the tough guy who plays it off like he has no feelings at all and nothing can hurt him.. I witnessed him, his eyes filling up with tears and him biting his lip to keep himself from crying the second he saw Micah's picture.. I witnessed the tears spill from his eyes when your senior picture came up over the screen and he put his head in his hands and tried hiding it. I witnessed Amanda, who has said the nastiest things to you about losing Micah, I witnessed her trying to keep her breathing steady to stop the tears from coming but eventually they wouldn't be held back anymore, they just fell. Seeing all this emotion come from so many people was beautiful. I realize i'm not the only one who is slightly losing themselves in this hurt. It amazed me to see half the people in tears that were last night at graduation..
I wish so much you could just be here.. I wish we were able to be able to hear Micah's and your name be called to receive your diploma because God only knows how much you two have worked your off to get it. You two never ceased to amaze me. Not once.
It's the start of all of our lives, for a new chapter. Don't think we're forgetting about you, because believe me; we're not! But we can't let this hold us back from what we really want. I know if you two were here now, you'd be off doing what you needed to do to get what you want and deserved. Let that happen for us. Class of 2013. It's been a long crazy, emotional, year. We deserve this.
I love you Caleb more than you ever will know. Watch upon on us and guide us all in the right ways.
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One_Direction5 · 1 decade ago
OMG i haven't been on witty for so long and i came on tonight just to look at Caleb's profile.I can't believe he's gone,it seems just yesterday he was telling me about how happy he was his baby was born.I just cried my eyes out and I'm truly going to miss him,he was such an incredible person who has changed my life! R.I.P Caleb.
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
Everything about this I just don't want to believe. It's so hard to believe that it's been almost two months already. I miss you more and more everyday, but I know you're happy where you are. I love you so much.. I wish you were here.. I graduate not this week, but next week.. I know my heart is going to break along with the rest of the class when your's and Micah's name won't be called to receive everything you both worked for all these four crazy years. You and Micah should be up there with the rest of us.. But again, I wouldn't have been able to do this without your support. I miss you so much.. I just want to hear your voice one more time. ):
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