no matter how bad you treated me, I still want you back. I'm pathetic. whenever i think about it, I can't help but sink so low. All those secrets we told eachother. all those cold winter nights & the hot summer. When I said those words, I didn't just lose my love, I lost my best friend. I don't like to complain about it, because i sound like one of those cliche girls who mope around because ohmyy, my crush doesn't like me !. But it's different with you. People don't seem to think we had something, but neither of us can deny we did. I'm not waiting, but as I say this I know it's a lie. I'm not "mentally taken" by you, I'm just waiting. till the day you'll love me again. I'm always waiting for something. I just wish I could feel you again, talk to you again. And the air will never have the same consistency, we won't get those days back, but we can start again. love eachother again. I'm not trying to make this a secret, if you see this, you may know it's about you, you may not, but I have nothing to hide about this. I want you to hold me again. I guess I'll just write about it.