①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 9 years ago
baby i miss you.... <3
i've been so busy im sorry T^T ugh school ughhhh
i miss you so much and i still love you my best friend forever and ever<3
i have lots to tell you<3
stay beautiful, my love<3
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
BABY OMIGOD OMIGOD I LITERALLY ALMOST SCREAMED IN THE LIBRARY OOPSIES.
OMIGOD IDK OMIGOD idk if you should believe him or what but see? I told you that he like you!! You deserve amazing guys ok? Don't forget that<# ily babe I promise I will reply soon I'm sorry i've been so fking busy and I feel so bad but baby I prooooomise I will comment back to you<3 i love you my Jo<3
but OH MY FKING GOD he omg I can't even. no way no fking way. I'm so happy for you babe<3 I think before you say anything you should tell him how you don't want your parents to find out and everything because if he's worth it, he will understand to keep it secret<3
You're a beautifully gorgeous girl and you deserve a guy who is equally as amazing and funny and sweet as you<3
I love you jo jo baby<3333
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Dear best friend~
I love you so much and I hope you stay in my life forever because you are the best thing that's happened to me too<3
Stay beautiful<3 ~
Love, me<3
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Joela this is from like 2 weeks ago so some stuff is updated now lololol

Omggggg Joela I'm so sorry I've been sooooooo fking busy all week like you have no idea omg. And right now I'm on a band, chorus, orchestra, color guard trip at Disneyworld!!! Ok so this stuff happened last week:
Ok let me just tell you first off, I read your comment on Thursday and you were the only one that made my day. Seriously. I love your comments to me because you always make me smile. Ok so On Monday, I had piano lesson, pit orchestra for the musical, then I left early for the Orchesis clinic, and I had a meeting for the bad chorus and orchestra spring break trip but I didn't go because I had to learn the dance so my mom went (it was students and parents). And Tuesday, I had Orchesis tryouts and I went to the dance room with the Orchesis people in my study hall and I practiced. And the tryouts were after school and then I stayed after to see if I made first cuts and OH MY FKING GODDDDD I MADE FIRST CUTS!!! We had to learn a 45 second jazz routine and 45 sec modern routine. And if we made first cuts, we had to come back to learn a new jazz routine for the 2nd tryouts for tomorrow. And oh fck the new jazz routine was so hard. And that was like almost 2 min long wtf!! And so yeah that went from 5-6:30 pm and then there was also a optional practice that night also at 7:30-9:30 at this recreational center in the gym. I went. And yeah I was so tired. And then Wednesday I woke up all sore in my legs and arms and core. It hurt to move!! And to walk! And oh also I had blisters on the ball of my right foot and I wrapped it with the thingy idk what it's called. Omfg and then at tryouts, I did ok with my modern routine I almost forgot what to do. And the new jazz routine oh fck it was terrible I forgot some moves and one of them I went the wrong way and omfg I'm gonna cry. I was gonna cry after and after both routines, the judges which was seniors and the dance teacher, they told us to go back to where they out us for our starting spot. And I thought I was gonna cry omg bc I did so bad. Oh yeah and we tried out in groups of 4 so yeah. Anyways so then we waited for a little bit and then went back to the practice area. I was like omg I'm not gonna make it!!!! And one of my sister's friend who is tryng out to be Orchesis in freshman year, ask me if they made our group redo a jump. And I said no and got confuse why they would do that. And she said that a girl told her the judges made a group redo one of the jumps. So that made me think...maybe I didn't do that bad. But I still thought I did horrible T^T and yeah I was like yeah no I'm not gonna make it. And then I went home and I fell asleep for an hour and then I has to go back to school for band at 7:45-9 to practice for our concert on Thursday. And the whole time I'm just freaking out about Orchesis and I thought I would start crying because I did so bad and omfg I can't anymore I just can't!!!! And all I'm thinking about is how bad I fked up. I fking fked up the fking new jazz routine oh my fck I'm so fking done. I wish I could redo it or tell them I was so nervous and forgot everything omg omg omg omfg freaking out so much. And they said they would post a list the next morning or prob call us by 9:30 or later or something.... But I didn't get any call so I'm pretty fking sure I didn't make it. I feel like my high school life will not be accomplished if I don't make Orchesis. Because ok the story is that I took 10 years of ballet and 1 year of modern along with ballet in my 10th year. And then I quit in 8th grade because I couldn't make any friends and no one would talk to me. It was sad. And then last year I took a semester of dance in place of gym, and I loved it and I forgot how much I loved dance. So I tried out but I didn't make first cuts and now this year I did and omg. And yeah I didn't get a call on Wednesday night but I hoped that I missed the call or they forgot to call of I made it. And Thursday in morning before school I started crying a little in my room as I was getting ready. I was so fking mad at myself for messing up so bad and I really want to be in Orchesis. :( And during my 1st class all I could think about was messing up and me not making it. And just in case, I went down to the dance room before my 2nd class started to see if they post a list of who made it, and I had gym anyways for 2nd period. And I looked and there wasn't my name on it. And I started getting tears in my eyes and I went to the classroom because my gym class is like a leadership learning gym class and we had a classroom today and as leaders we planning a school wide culture week and stuff. Well anyways my teacher doesn't care if we're late. And he comes a few min late anyways so doesn't matter. And I still trying to blink back tears. So I went to the bathroom and in a stall I started to cry a lot. But I had to stop myself because the bell rang and so I fixed my makeup and tried to look like I wasn't crying. And it was like 2 min I cried. And when I went back, people were still waiting outside the classroom for the teacher to come and unlock the door. But it was hard for me to hold back the tears. And at lunch I almost cried in front of my lunch table and also my friend was about to cry too because she was sad she had to quit a job she loved to be able to commit to soccer. Yeah I almost start to cry and people at my table try to make me smile. But then I read your comment and you made me smile for the first time all day :) and lots of people kept asking me if I made Orchesis and right away I started getting tears so I shook my head no. Ohhh but I was walking to my classes with tears and I hoped people didn't see that and omg I keep crying all day. And I was so quiet at lunch I'm usually loud and he asked me why I am so quiet today. And I started getting tears and it took me a few secs and I said shut up. And went back to pretending texting people on my phone. And then my friend who had to quit work said that she was about to cry and I said me too. And the guy who I told to shut up started being annoying and both me and my friend started getting tears and I was about to walk away from the table and go to the bathroom and start crying except I saw Ian and also another guy his name is Adam an sits at my table he told the other guy to shut up. And he asked both me and my frien what happened and I said I couldn't talk so she could explain for me bc I thought I would start crying. And then he asked her what's wrong and she said she had to quit work. And Adam is one of those guys that can be a dck sometimes and is also perverted but he is understanding when it gets to that. But yes I almost cry again. :( :( :( :( I'm sorry Joela I couldn't help myself I just had to start crying I'm so sorry I know you don't like when I cry but I do because this was my last chance to make Orchesis but I didn't. And omg I knew the routine but when tryouts started I blanked out because I was under so much pressure and stress omg I wish I could redo it. I'm such a fail and I hate myself so much for it. I'm not fking good enough. Oh and also a really nice girl from color guard saw me and asked how I did except it was bad timing because I was going to go to the bathroom to cry more and she called my name and I started to cry right there and I just couldn't anymore and she took me to the bathroom and try to help me calm down and to make me smile but it didn't help I just acted like it did and tryed to stop the tears. And I was gonna be late for class. And OMG IM SO SO SO SORRY I KEEP VENTING ABOUT STUPID ORCHESIS ITS JUST OMG I NEED TO GET IT OUT AND IF I PHYSICALLY TALK ABOUT IT I WILL START CRYING AND OMG I'm crying a little I'm sorry omg ughhh. I skipped lunch on Thursday too. Ok and then I also had a band concert on Thursday night. Well not band, but it was orchestra with some of the winds and percussion with orchestra. And when I got home, and went to bed, I cried myself I sleep because I didn't make Orchesis. And then Friday! Oh hooooh let me tell you about Friday! So we have a spring break and on Friday they let us out an hour early. They always do that for winter break and spring break, and for when it's the end of the semester/quarter. Anyways! So we had an assembly an hour long at the end of the day. And the band/color guard teacher was able to get us out of our last class before he assembly so we'd have time to change and finish makeup. Oh the assembly was for winter recognition for the sports teams and color guard!!! So during our homeroom/seminar time (before assembly) the color guard went to the band room to start putting on makeup. And I learnt how to put on eyeshadow correctly because of color guard. And daaaammmmnnn my winged eyeliner actually looked perfect today and now I had to do the eyeshadow for our Frozen choreo. And wow my eyeshadow looked good but we have to put a lot so people can see it but dayum I wish I took a pic!!!! I felt awk bc it's blue and white eyeshadow and it felt I had like 50 pounds of makeup on lol omg. So yeah we were walking around the ret of the day with our makeup and we also wore our color guard shirts to show off our pride lol and yeah. Anyways! I wanted Ian to see me wih my purtyful eyeshadow that everyone kept saying they liked it. So I had to get to class, and it was his lunch so as I was walking to class, I purposefully walked the area by his table but I didn't pass right in front of his table but it was so he could see me maybe. And I walked really slow. But he was busy talkig with his friends. Anyways!!!!!!!! Fat forward to the assembly. So before the assembly I was retouching my makeup and Orchesis girls walked in and I thought I would start crying. :( and also when we did a run through before the assembly, the Orchesis people were watching and they were cheerig and everything. But I wanted to cry. And one of my spots was in front of the Orchesis girls and she saw me and smiled at me and omg I got teary omg but I didn't cry. Anyways! So the order of the assembly was to perform the Frozen routine and then they would announce other sports and stuff then we would end it with the Light Em Up routine. Soooo!!!! When we walked in I was like omg I'm so nervous it's the whole fking school watching us. And then we went to our starting spots and I saw Ian! :) and he waved to me but I didn't wave back because I wasn't looking at him but I was getting ready. And he waved to someone else in color guard. I was all smiley because everyone kept cheering when they were announcin our names and that it was. Let It Go and other news about our season. Anyways then Ian waved to me again and I waved back I was like hehehehe!!! And I started freaking out I was like omg and saying good luck to peoples. And Ian waved to me again and it made me smile and I waved back. And that helped me smile big through the whole choreo for Frozen:) and I thought of YOUUUUU I was like ohhhh I wish Joela was here to see me!!! And omg I made it kinda obvi bc after he waved to me I did the "fangirl waving arms around" move and shoot just heh omg. And then when we got to perform Light Em Up, we need angry and p/issed off facials expressions. And ohhh something got me in the fking mood and I wasn't even planning on it happening. So I started setting up my flags and I passed by where Ian was sitting in the bleachers. (We were in our school gym). And I looked at him BUT not obvious, I only looked out of the corner of my eye and I was smiling. And guess what I fking saw? I saw Ian's arm around a girl. And in my head I was like "OHHH MYGOD FCK YOU! JUST NO FCK YOU FCK YOU FCK YOU FCK YOU. You do NOT just fking wave to me and try to talk to me and then just like no." Like omg idk if he figured out I like him and did that to p/iss me off, but that's impossible, or maybe he just didn't know and had his arm around his fking girlfriend and I didn't see it before. And then I was setting up my other flags in other places and I had to be where I could see him . And AGAIN he had his fking arm around her! But ohhhh my facial expressions for the choreo was amazing because thanks to fking Ian , I was fking p/issed off. And then when we were done with the routine, the color guard walked out of the gym but I didn't even bother to look at him even in the corner of my eye. He made me mad omg. And also in the assembly was a teachers vs seniors basketball game. And we watched video of our performances and the bell was gonna ring soon. So I was waiting with some color guard people outside the gym but out of everyone's way bc someone wanted me to stay after school wih them. And I saw Ian walking out and in my head I was like "fck you fck you fck you fck you fck you ." And one of his friends that I knew from band (remember Zion) he said hi and good job to me. Yeahhhh... Idk I'm p/issed off. He can't just fking do that to me. Well I mean we didn't really talk much either so I guess I can't be that mad.... But still. I wanted to cry but I was like nop no crying over guys. And I think I felt more mad than sad... Lol... But I wonder what will happen when I see him in lunch after spring break.... I want to just flick him off with the middle finger but he wouldn't even know why I would do that, so.... Plus he's nice to me. Unlike Ty,who was nice but didn't fking respect me. Or maybe I'm just assuming that Ian has a girlfriend bc I saw his arm around her. Haha yeah no. This always end up happening. I like someone and then he ends up he already has a girlfriend. Ugh. Like seriously. Eh I mean I don't know him that well and we don't talk that much and I met him like what.... A month ago? Idk haha. Oh well....
Update on Ian:) it turns out he does NOT have a gf! He just puts his arm around girls and holds their hands all the time, according to someone. Ooooh I like a player!! 0.0 I didn't think some adorable cute little nerd like him would be like that :I


Anyways now to reply to your comment! :D YAAAAAAY!!!!!! :D
Oh but I'm always worry about my mom because she's always yelling at me and I feel bad. Like some people can tell their mom everything but I don't trust my mom and the is no fking way I would ever tell her what I tell you. Because I'm serious I can talk to you about anything. I don't even trust y friends with stuff like what I tell you.
Aww :c why must your parents do that! Hey have the fking money but not laying for college? What is that!!! That's so stupid omg. I'm sorry:( I wish you could go. If I was rich (I'm not sadly) I would pay you college. You should be your parents. College is important thing to go.
HahAHAHA noooo lol I'm not in a band, I'm just in band. Band as in band or orchestra. Band as in the instruments with flutes, clarinet, saxophone, trumpet, drums, trombone, tuba. Lol nope not in a band lol just in the band class hehehe
WHAT your brother is 11!???!!! I thought he was an older brother.... Oh... Wait. The fck, he has a phone? Cus you told me sometime your brother lets you play in his Samsung Galaxy or whatever phone it was. Well ok now I understand why your brother never leave you alone. He's almost 12 and wouldn't understand much
Awwh :') thank you Joela you make me smile always :) but no in reality I'm not even that smart so yeah... Omg my school is 7 hours too though so omg I understand. I wake up at 5 am though bc my mother makes me go to this seminary bible study class every school day for my church. Oh I would come home at 3 or 3:30pm but I don't. I don't like being at home so I stay at school. But now since my mom made me quit fking track and field bc she said it was a waste of time and wouldn't pick me up or do anything for track. But I'm in pit orchestra for the musical at my school biut we don't practice every day. So when ever I don't have pit orchestra, I make excuse like I was practicing my musics for it and stuff. But instead I just sit in the lunch room sometimes by myself unless someone comes by and talks with me. But I'm just on my phone, listening to music or talking with people. I don't like to go home.... I really don't....
Aw you want to get tan just like stay outside all the time in the summer. Idk well I'm naturally tan bc I'm Filipino I guess but my parents are lighter than me like wtf how does that happen. Ok but don't turn into one of those people that go fking orange from that stupid fake "tan" omg after spring break and the rest of the year, and then after summer break, I always see orange girls everywhere at mey school. I'm just all like ooh! What's your race? Carrot? HAHAHA but omg those fking carrot btches. Like ok well the fake tan is good if you do it right and not too much lol
HahA well it looks like me and Ian are not gonna go out. :p lol my friend called him a man w/ for that loool
Awww you played flute too? Yay lol!
Oooh lol so glad I didn't ask Ian to watch divergent with me. Instead I took my little sister and her friend to see it. Me and her friend were fangirling the whole movie lol she was like omg and I was like omg. Haaaa I wanted to scream. Aw you won't be alone watching it in your birthday., I'll be with you ok im coming right now
Aw that's too bad :( THEN I WILL FKING COME OVER THERE!!!!!!!!! Why does your parents not want you to come to America? Omggg I will freaking find a way that we will see way other ok I won't give up. I'll come visit you then! Yaaaay hehe!! And then I will take you here. Lol. I'm gonna teach your parents a fking lesson I wish I could slap them hard because everything they won't let you to do.
Ohhhh not even! Derek doesn't even try to be swaggy he's a nerd and ugly as fck. Lots of people hate him omg he so annoying. But yeah the people that actually try to have swag, like no. They're so annoying. Ok we will go slap everyone in our schools, the both of us will slap everyone in my school like that and then we will go slap everyone in your school so hard. Oh yes please everyone wants to slap Derek. And I'll go slap people in your school! >:D
Oh aww I know it's hard trying to get over Johny </3 but it's possible ok. I know that you can get through anything no matter how hard it can be<3 you might need the help of some friends along the way, but in the end you'll be stronger!!! :D believe it girrrrl! There's so much other guys and there used to be this one guy I dated for a month and I still liked him and was still heartbroken a year after that. It was a bad time but you know what I got over him and now I'm stronger . They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger<3
Also in my opinion I think talking about something and letting it out is better than keeping it all in and telling no one. You have to let it all out because it's good for you. So I'm here all the time you wanna talk about him. I care about you and I don't want to see my best friend be sad and hurt. Because that hurts me </3 okkkkk
AWEEEEEE tears :') I feel so special that you wrote an essay to describe your best friend and you describe me <3 I'm crying omg no one ever has done that for me omg happy tears awww that totally made my day awww omg I can't believe aww Joela babe I love you so freaking much I'm so honored to have an essay about me<3 is it ok to show me the essay? Lol it's fine if you don't, it's just I like to hear what people say about me, good or bad. In your case it's good :)
Omg that btch of Jonhy's best friend saying I'm gonna be so beautiful omg omg omfg can I slap her in the face so hard!!!!!!!!!! Ughhhhhhhh I hate people like that omg like seriously. Jojo me and you are gonna slap and punch a lott of people it's not even funny. Lol ok maybe a little but there's so many btches out there and just omg.
OH HE.LL YEAH Ty was being a btch and a d.ouche and everything omffff. Good I hope I was mean. I wish I was mean to him as soon as he p.issed me off but nooo I was too nice. Ugh. And yeah ikr I don't even know what the fck words he was using like I don't understand I don't think those are real words even. Like the fck!? Wtf is a Freud or whatever it was. I don't even fcking know. He uses words that no one would use ever or even no one knows. Fcking nerd. Imean he maked out with me so much! He probably just wanted the v. UGH! Hah HAAAAAA ikkkkk my comeback to him was epic! I could've done so much worse than that but I decided to start out less harsh and then I would be more meaner after that lol

Ok so now here's an update!
So now this is the week of your birthday :) aka last week!
Sooo I found out the Ian does NOT have a girlfriend （＾ω＾）so on the bus ride to Florida on Sunday, I was talking with this freshman acquaintance friend, and I told her about how I liked Ian but I found out he has a gf. Except when I saw my freshie acquaintance friend, she was with his "gf" and so I just told my freshie friend that I was mad and I'll tell her later. So I ended up telling her on Sunday. And she knows who Ian is because they're in the same biology class. And my freshie friend said that Ian doesn't have a girlfriend, he does that to everyone. He holds girls hands, hugs them, and everything. And she said he's a player. And I'm just like ！(◎0◎;) omg what a cute little nerdy freshman is a PLAYER!!!!????!?!?!! Like he's one of those guys who's smart and nerdy and plays games like Pokemon and Magic, except this is a cute nerd. Like seriously he's cute. I was so surprise at that I was like noooo fking way. But hehehe he doesn't have a gf yesssssss
Lol so yeah I was on spring break last week for my school and I was sooooo super busy that I couldn't reply to you. Like every night we would get back from Disney at 9:30, 10, and once it was at 10:30. Yeah and also my phone decided to be a btch and not charge he night before I left for the trip so I was freaking out. So my dad let me borrow his phone for the trip and I was like yaaaay now I can comment to Joela using the wifi!!! Except my comment was saved in my phone and there was no way I could get it and ugh. And then one night my phone started actually charging and I was like yaaay but then the next day it was charging and at 100% except then the next time I looked at it, it wouldn't turn on for some reason. And then it wouldn't turn on until Saturday night and I was just like ugghhh.
Mmm anyways idk if I should say anything because this person has a witty 0.0 so idk lol. Well I'm pretty sure that he doesn't go on witty a lot anymore, sooooo.... Ok like me and him have been witty friends for over a year maybe 2 years idk it's been a while. Anyways me and him use to talk a lot on witty and now we don't anymore. But we are fb friends and also he lives like maybe and hour or 2 away from me but we still haven't met. Anyways!!!! Over spring break we were fb messaging a lot and one night we tried to skype. It didn't turn out too well because my whole room which was 3 other girls was like omgggg is that your boyfriend!!!!! I was like nooo omg. And a few other friends was like omg is your bf!! One of them was my freshman acquaintance and she kept saying ooooh how's your boyfriend! And I'm just like omggg stahp it he's not my boyfriend. And she was like soon he will be! And nah I don't think so. But idk I used to kinda have a crush on him for a while. No one knows that I met him on witty 0.0 I was all like he lives in Indiana and he's like my best guy friend. Except he's more of a best guy Witty friend lololol... Meh. Those peasants don't need to know about witty. If anyone in my school finds me on witty, I'm fking screwed. Omg there was this one girl last year she saw me on witty and she was like isn't that website awesome!!!! And I was like *O* because I also saw her on witty and omg I need to find her witty! I hope she didn't see my username. ANYWAYS! Me and the Witty guy. Yeah my freshie acquaintance friend totally ships us and I'm just like omg. Because since spring break, we have been texting. And hehe ok he's kinda hehe idk I kinda like him I guess but idk. He's a freshman tho.. Oh well lol. But nahh. Sometimes though I think he likes me but idk.
Ooooommmmmmggggg you will not believe what th fck happened on Monday. Ohhh fck I'm so fking proud of myself. I have to get the pics uploaded and then show you. Ggggoooooddddd my comebacks to it though. They were epic.
Okkkk omg here they are heheheheee my responses BURRRRNNNN omg ok I gotta tell you one of them though. In my first long text, at the end, my favorite sentence is where I said Btch, I'm fabulous. Oohhhhh mmmyyyy gggooodddd just omg omigod I love it! And all my other good comebacks just wait for it OMG ok here is the links
OMYGOD WAIT I FORGOT TO TELL YOU in such a rebel ;) I got 2 henna tattoos I will also show you it. I got it one in each wrist and they are Chinese characters. They mean a lot. One says beautiful, because I want to believe that I am beautiful someday, yes I know people tell me but I don't believe it all the time. The other one means laughing, I got that because I want to remember to have fun, laugh, and I laugh a lot, and also I remember to not take life so hard and I'm repeating it again to have fun. Ok here are the texts I can't show you my henna tats right now but soon ok. So read this in order of the numbers!! There are 11 screenshot pics from my phone and lol omg. Here you go the pass to the pics is wittyprofiles <-- no caps, no spaces, it's exactly what I typed it
Ok lol hehehehehe burrrnnnn
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Yeah. So omg I'm so proud of myself and also my guy witty friend I told you about, yeah I texted him and he really wanted to know what I said so I showed also some screenshots and he was like woah those comebacks though. Omigod I hope I didn't forgot to say anything. Well OH
I have a birthday surprise for you ;D it's awesome and it's all good but I wanna do one more thing to make it super special and I don't care how stuff and stuff will... Omg if I say too much I'll give it away. OOOKAAAAY but it's amazing and you'll love it ok I gotta OMG
I love you baby so much. I'm glad you are my best friend and you will forever be my best friend<333333 forever and always we're beat friends, no matter what<3
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Yesss. It was amazing omg! They had this ride inside Hogwarts omg. I wanted to luve there and not gi back home lol.
So what about you? Hows it going
(Sorry uf ibhave a bunch of typos, I am typing on a phone
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Haha and in my first comment, i meant miss. :P
Oh btw i was at universal today and visited the harry potter area ;)
Ill update you on itsoon!!
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永久* · 1 decade ago
Oh, that's so cool :D It's alright, take your time :)
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Yesss. It was amazing omg! They had this ride inside Hogwarts omg. I wanted to luve there and not gi back home lol.
So what about you? Hows it going
(Sorry uf ibhave a bunch of typos, I am typing on a phone
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Ive been busy too! Im at Disneyworld with the music department at my school wooo so i wont be able to comment much
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Haha and in my first comment, i meant miss. :P
Oh btw i was at universal today and visited the harry potter area ;)
Ill update you on itsoon!!
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永久* · 1 decade ago
Oh, that's so cool :D It's alright, take your time :)
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Yesss. It was amazing omg! They had this ride inside Hogwarts omg. I wanted to luve there and not gi back home lol.
So what about you? Hows it going
(Sorry uf ibhave a bunch of typos, I am typing on a phone
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
No time is too long
No distance is too far
And no one can ever keep or tear us apart <3

I love you my beautiful best friend<3
Dont ever forget that c:
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Aww girlie. I niss you too<3 how have you been? Update meeeee: )
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永久* · 1 decade ago
You niss me? Aww :P
I've been ok :/ I'll update you later, kinda busy now, sorry :(
How have you been?
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Ive been busy too! Im at Disneyworld with the music department at my school wooo so i wont be able to comment much
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Haha and in my first comment, i meant miss. :P
Oh btw i was at universal today and visited the harry potter area ;)
Ill update you on itsoon!!
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永久* · 1 decade ago
Oh, that's so cool :D It's alright, take your time :)
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Yesss. It was amazing omg! They had this ride inside Hogwarts omg. I wanted to luve there and not gi back home lol.
So what about you? Hows it going
(Sorry uf ibhave a bunch of typos, I am typing on a phone
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
OMG MY JOELA BABY ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!! MY FCKING GOD YAAAAAY
I HAD A SURPEISE FOR YOU BUT I WANT IT TO BE SUPER SPECIAL AND IT WONT BE SUPER SPECIAL IF I TELL YOU IN A COMMENT VS THE SURPRISE ;)
And also i have my reply to your comment but i cant get it right now because i saved it in my phone and im not on my phone...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY MAKE IT AWESOME!
I WISH I WAS THERE WITH YOU<3
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
omf I forgot to tell you what happened on Tuesday. My friend Kristine texted me, and said hey. And I replied back hi whats up. and like 20 mins later, Ty texts me. Well I don't know who it is at first because I honestly lost his number because I lost like all my contacts when I got my new phone. Anyways, I got off at the text. I'm pretty sure Kristine was trying out to see that I got my text back becayse I never told ty that I got my text back. ANd we stopped texting waaay back in January. But I was like ugghhhh go away. I DIDN'T SAY THAT LOL I WISH. But I took so long to reply. Even though I figured out who it was, I still asked who it was. My plan was to slowly be mean and start out saying less harsh swears like h/ell and d.amn and then go start saying stuff like sht, btch, fck, a/hole, all those mean stuff. But here I will just show you the texts. Omg I was so mean here you have to read. The green is me. Here is the link you have to read it omf I was so mean and that wasn't even the most mean I could be!! But my last text he never replied to and ohhhh hahah oml so funny. Ok when you get to the part about a Freud... Like I don't know what the fcking fck is a Freud. I don't know most of the sht he's saying because he uses weird words. like wtf
http://tinypic.com/m/i41c8m/4 here is the pics of the texts
like wtffff omg I can't even. ok I have to go now it's 10pm and I'm at my grandma's house and my mom is yelling at me I have to goooo okkkk
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
It's okaaaay! Ugh ik school had to take so much time it's just ugh. I'm done with school like omg. I want to do good but I don't feel like doing sht. Ughhh and my mom thinks I don't care about school or getting into a good college. Yes of course I care but she makes too big of a deal about it. Hate it. So so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry I haven't been able to reply to you in forever but too much stuff was going on this week. I had to go to pit orchestra, practice my musics, do this fking homework, try to study for physics, watch a band concert (there's 2 bands in my school, concert band is the "bad" people and symphonic band is the advanced people. i guess... it's really because of our chair placement and the freshmens are really bad so I got a spot in the symphonic band and omg the music is so hard ugh) so yes I went to watch the concert band play, and i had to read chapter summaries for my US history quiz because I didn't read the actual chapters, and I had to go early in Thursday which is my late start day (we have late start Thursdays and school starts an hour later and the classes, lunches, and passing periods are shorter but we still get out the same time), and I had to turn in a 2 essay questions and get stuff signed omg way too busy this week oh wow.
Ohhh I'm sorry about your brother :( he should leave you alone. How old is he? He should understand that girls need their alone time.
I know my mom isn't right but sometimes I so think I'm stupid cause I can't get a good grades. One grade is so close to failing...it's a D and it is AP (advanced placement) which is the same as college level class. And it's AP U.S. History ughhh. So what do you do in that physical class? Is it like the physical education/gym??? That's all I can think of until you describe to me the class lol. But last semester I took 3 D's and it brought my GPA down a lot. Bah my school is strict but at the same time not strict... Idk it's hard to explain... And yes please slap my mother please. Slap the sht out of her. I can't even. That was a bad day for me. Awwwh thank you<3 you make my day always so much better, love you boo<3 ok next time I feel like I'm gonna cry I will try to think that, thank youuuuuu that made me smile:)
Aww I understand about that gangsta guy. This guy Julian I went out with made me cry many many times after he dumped me and I used to cry every night. I still cried from November 2011 to middle April 2012 and got over him in August 2012. Since then, no guy has made me cry. Well kinda I guess, but that one time I had a lot of stress and pressure on me because of school, grades, parents, work, a guy friend just asked me out but I also liked Ty(he didn't ask me out until 3 days after) and yeah I then I was walking to class, saw one of my friends and started talking and I just broke down in front of her.
Aww I can be your counselor<3 oh ik the time zone difference sucks a/ss.
Haaaa yeah haha lmao I know the uniforms are ugly and awwww thanks you<3 I know omg frozen was so much fun and that song omg like everyone know what choreo we are. Everyone in our competitions would be like oh you're the Frozen routine! Or say oh darn I missed watching your flags! Aww sometimes I hate my tan skin because in the summer I get sooooo fking tan omfg it's not even funny. Haha awww you always make me smile you're super gorgeous too omg send me some pics of you again sometime<3
AHHHH NONONONO ok AHHHH HEHEHEHEHE OMFG HE TALKED TO ME HEHEHEHEHE omg you should have seen me I was fangirling after lol! Ok so this week on Monday during lunch, my friend wanted me to come with her to get her backpack from her car and right before we got up someone said something funny and we started laughing. And today Ian was in the table right in front of me OMG and so when I was following my friend, I was still smiling and I passed by him and looked at him from the side of my eye and then he looked at me, smiled, and said sup. and I smiled back at him even though I already was lol and I waved and said hey. HEHEEHE an then right after, I said to my friend omg he said sup to me and I started going hehehhe!!!!! Oh btw that's the same girl u wasn't sure to tell her but I decided to tell her because this year she is a senior and dated a freshman for like a week. Anyways and then Tuesday was omg!!!!!!!!! So we have 2 lunch periods, one is called A Lunch and the other one is called B Lunch. Obvi A Lunch is first. And also we have block schedule which means 4 classes one day and the next day is the other 4 classes. And so today was the lunch that I don't have with him. And I had band. And today we were taking yearbook pics so we had to get in our concert uniform which is a long black dress for girls. And I wear heels with it because we need nice black shoes/heels/whatever. And so the pics are in our school theatre and from the band room there's hallways then the lunch area and then the theatre right by the lunch area (hard to explain) but anyways I knew I would pass by his table. So I was walking to the theatre with my flute (oh btw I play the flute idk if I ever told you) and idk I guess I got lucky because he just happened to be throwing away his lunch and he saw me and smiled. And I was passing by a pole and on the other side he threw out his lunch. And he went to the other side and talked to me AHHHHH HEHEHEHE and he said: taking pictures? And I said: yeaah. And he said: fuuun! And I said: I know haha! And then I had to go for pics but omg heheheheheheeeeeeeee heeee heeee!!!! I have had a good week so far. Well those 2 times made my day on Monday and Tuesday and I am still fangirling about it hehehe and you won't believe Wednesday!!!!! So ehehee!! After lunch I purposely walked slow or went faster so I could be in front of Ian when he goes to his guitar class and my study hall class is past his class. And then I saw my band friend Juliana like close by him, they didn't talk, she just happened to be close and so I yelled her name. And both of them turn around . And she's like YAY and walks toward me and I'm walking towards her and then she hugs me but then holds on to me and makes me walk backwards the other way. And I'm like noooo my class is that way(meaning the opposite way she was pulling me). And Ian says... Shoot i forgot what he said. He said something like yeah take her away! And I'm like what!! But I'm laughing and he waves to me and says hey and I wave back and say heeey!!! HEHEHEHEHEEE more progress with him!! :) smiley face!!!! I'm gonna ask him if he wants to go see Divergent with me and some peoples. :D hehe I'm so fking shy though so yeah lol oh well. Okkk so omg and then on Friday (today!!) it was really nice out like 12 degrees Celsius and we have had bad snowy and cold weather since winter started. Anyways, so I walked to 7 Eleven, I'm not sure if they have those in your country. But anyways I walked there for lunch and it's only a 10-15 minute walk. I came back to school with 15 min left in lunch. I got a slurpee from 7 eleven. There was something in the theatre where we could get free food after so me and my friend tried to see if we could get food but we didn't. It was a try though. And I took my slurpee in the theatre and I saw Ian hehehe! And I was talking to people and they were like you went to 7 eleven!? And I said yes and that I walked there without any of you!!! And Ian came up to me really close he was like 2 feet away from me idk how many meter that is... Anyways he stood there and stared at me. I said hey. And he kept staring at me and in my head I was like hehehe and I think I was blushing. And after 5 seconds I said what? And he laughed then walked away from me like 1 meter and said you went to 7 Eleven without me? And I said yes. And he's like you didn't bring me! First you throw bean bags at me and then you don't take me to 7 Eleven?! I was like (in a joking voice) I'm sorrryyyyyy!! And he said: you owe me! And I was like what I don't even-- sorrrryyyy!! But he was joking the whole time and smiling at me. But omg when he was really close to me I swear I was blushing and I got really hot and nervous and omg just omg. Heeehhheehe! akkkkk omg i fangirl to much about him and yes so he made me smile the in the rest of the day whenever I thought of what happened at lunch. And then I wanted to scream because I couldn't wait to tell you and also because I haven't talked to you in a long time
Oh please no lololol you made me almost burst out laughing in my school library oh SHT!!!! Hahaha but yeah ik "nice job in the spelling bee" ohhhh idk why I fangirled that one sentence so much lmao it's just omg i can't even
And ugh omg girl don't you seeeee!???????!!! Why wouldn't boys not like you?! What's there not to like! You're beautiful and look all those guys that like you in middle school:) it's true, you ARE beautiful and you better believe it! And yeah i know high school fking sucks.
OOOOH so I got an idea for you to come to America!!!!!! Well IF your parents would let you. Ok BEG THEM TO LET YOU, BEG THEM!!!! Ok so next year you should be an exchange student in my school!!!! And I can be your host family and we would party the fck up every day !!! Looool idk if that actually would happen....... The exchange part. Because there is this girl in my math class she is an exchange student from Germany and she is studying in America for a school year and then going back home. But you know... You coming here is an idea.... I like that idea omfg. Because I know there's this girl who's where you're from, and you'd get along with her really well. I mean she's a freshman and popular, but she's the nice kind of popular people and she just talks to everyone. Meaning super friendly. She's crazy insane like us heehe! Anyways yeah but you as an exchange student would prob not happen T^T oh well. I like the idea. Cus then we would talk every day and I promise I won't ditch you unlike the btchy girls at your school. Ugh I would punch them all the time. Well probably not for real because then my mom would prob kill me for getting in a fight... So what I do is I get into fights but it's in my head so it never happens lol and I don't get in trouble and the people I fight always in trouble and of course bigger than me but I use my Asian skills!!! Lol I'm so weird haaaa
Oh yes please slap Derek. Yesterday (Thursday) I wanted to punch him so hard. So fking hard. He is in my history class ugh and ugh he so fking annoying! I don't even consider him my friend anymore I don't even know how I used to like him. So anyways he always makes me walk to his seminar/homeroom after history, like shouldn't he walk me to mine instead wtf. Anyways oh before that during class OMF. He talks so much during class and he sits in the next row and one desk behind me. And directly behind me is Ryan I think I told you about him. Bt omffff Derek was talking to Ryan and he always does. And Ryan is a good student, but Derek always saying something and no one gives a fck. Well my teacher was giving instructions for this activity and as always, Derek was talking to Ryan. And my history teacher finally says "Derek shut up and listen to me for once." And in my head I was like THANK YOU! And he stopped talking. But not for long. Anyways so yeah I walk him to his homeroom and on my way, I see a girl who is on the chubby side, but she is my friend but in the end of freshie year I got a little annoyed by her but then I stopped in th next school year. Anyways we passed by her and I waved and tried to mouth out help me, without Derek seeing it. And then after we passed, Derek was like you like her, I thought you didn't anymore. I was like of course I like her she is my friend!! And then he was saying that my friend is aggressive and insecure because she threatens guys. And I said she's not aggressive. And he said she is and she's insecure. And I say don't judge insecure people. And he said he's not and then said that insecure people are unstable. And I couldn't say anything because I bought I would start crying and I was NOT about to give him the fking permission to see me cry. But I really so want to punch him and say you don't fking know our story so don't even try to fking judge you btch. But OMFFFFFG I got so just omg he can't just say that about people! It's mean and ugh I want to slap him shtless GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! OH and omfg! Almost forgot! During class, we got our quiz back, it was one question we had to write a short answer for and an extra credit question. Well I got mine back and I got 15/15 yaaaay I got 100% yaaayayayay! And because I have a D in history I was surprised at myself but also proud of myself. I usually do bad on every quiz and test... Anyways Derek got his back and he asked me, Ryan, and a girl that sits in front of me what we got. We all got 15/15. Yay! But apparently NOT yay for Derek because that btch was bragging that he got the extra credit question right. And he was like haha suckers I got 20/15, all of you are stupid, the extra credit question was so easy! But like omfg I wanted to slap him hard with spikes filled with poison. Like ok we are stupid for getting 100% and he's smart for getting also the extra credit?! Okay suuuuure. And ugh he always brags about everything and stuff it's so annoying.
WHAT THE FCK YOUR MOM MADE YOU BE "FRIENDS" WITH HER AGAIN!! Why the fck... oh I'm sorry *hugs tight* why would your mom even!! Ok so tell me what did that btch do I will go and punch her now ugh that btch I am so sorry your mom made you "friends" with her again.
Well I hope one day we will have each other in real life <3 we are be best friend forever<3
Aww you should try to get over Johny i think idk. or you could make Johny jealous by you talking to the other guy instead like oml Johny deserves it anyways because hes been a d.ck to you and giving you mixed signals. and wow he got back with his best friend but just "friends" oh wooooow
HAHAHA OMG THAT IDIOT BTCH WORE A CROP TOP WTTFFFFF thats stupid
and good that you feel better when he's not around. Ohhh I'm glad you had a good time in teacher's day, we don't have that at my school.
Baby you don't need to try to be perfect to get some guy to notice you. It's not about a perfect person, it's about seeing an imperfect person perfectly<3 That's how I see you. You are my imprrfect perfect best friend<3 To get the guy that's worth it, you just have to be yourself and the true guys will notice you ok? Believe it<3 It will happen baby just believe in yourself<3
I love you so much too oh I wish I could meet you now. I'm glad I make you smile and we will meet one day! ahhhh I PROMISE I WON'T MISS YOUR BIRTHDAY OMG YOU HAVE AN EPIC BIRTHDAY OK OK I WILL BUY A PLANE TICKET AND THROW YOU A FANCY PARTY OK LETS GO SHOPPING FOR YOUR DRESS RIGHT NOW GO GO GO but yeah lol I will NOT miss your birthday for the world. If I was dying, I would fcking buy a plane ticket and go see you just to say happy birthday to you. That's how much I love you baby<3
ohhhh pleeeaaaase tell me more stories from you! I write so much here I feel like I'm always telling you about what happens with me.... but anyways yes yes yes tell me more about you and what happens and stuff and stuff. I write so d.amn much
I love youuuuuu my sweet best friend<3
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
omf I forgot to tell you what happened on Tuesday. My friend Kristine texted me, and said hey. And I replied back hi whats up. and like 20 mins later, Ty texts me. Well I don't know who it is at first because I honestly lost his number because I lost like all my contacts when I got my new phone. Anyways, I got off at the text. I'm pretty sure Kristine was trying out to see that I got my text back becayse I never told ty that I got my text back. ANd we stopped texting waaay back in January. But I was like ugghhhh go away. I DIDN'T SAY THAT LOL I WISH. But I took so long to reply. Even though I figured out who it was, I still asked who it was. My plan was to slowly be mean and start out saying less harsh swears like h/ell and d.amn and then go start saying stuff like sht, btch, fck, a/hole, all those mean stuff. But here I will just show you the texts. Omg I was so mean here you have to read. The green is me. Here is the link you have to read it omf I was so mean and that wasn't even the most mean I could be!! But my last text he never replied to and ohhhh hahah oml so funny. Ok when you get to the part about a Freud... Like I don't know what the fcking fck is a Freud. I don't know most of the sht he's saying because he uses weird words. like wtf
http://tinypic.com/m/i41c8m/4 here is the pics of the texts
like wtffff omg I can't even. ok I have to go now it's 10pm and I'm at my grandma's house and my mom is yelling at me I have to goooo okkkk
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Joela<3 my best friend/sister love for you is like a circle, it never ends<3
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
So she writes a nice letter about your funny moments together but not asking for forgiveness. Wow just wow. Girl you did the right thing to stop talking to her. UGH why does many people do this to you?! It hurts me to know that people have the dignity to go around hurting you. I can't even. I will slap every single one of those btches. No please save the best for someone who you know will be the best. Pleaaaaase promise me you will save your friendship for someone who is truly worth it and someone you know will be a true friend.
OH MY FKING SHT T.ITS HE IS FKING HOT. OH HOT DAAAAAAMMMMMMNNN. WELL FCK DO I LIKE HIM? OF COURSE OH JEEZ THAT HOTNESS OMFG OHHHHHHHHHHHH
JJJOOOOEEEEELLLLLAAAAAA YOU GOT GOOD TASTE ;D
Awww I'm glad he makes you smile and feel good<3 awwwweee so cute that you remember your middle school moments hahahaha cutieeeeees
Oh and also by deleting it do you mean delet the whole comment? Because I like to save all my comments from you but that's ok if you need me to delete it because of hot guy pic, I will. I'm little confused so I delete the whole comment? Idkkk helppp lol
Hmmmm Johny has been acting nice lately? I bet he got jealous you and the hot guy. HAAAAAA TAKE THAT JOHNY!!! Well I'm glad you feel good. He deserves to not talk to that . First he is treating you like sht but not he's not? Well he better get his sht together. Or else I will personally tell him that he better not try playing you and treat you bad or else I will show him what is like. Lol once one of my friend, he said: get a cheese grater and grate their skin, then put salt on it.
And then I added to put vinegar also! That is PAAAIIIIINNNN!!!
And then, after he sees all that and screams in agony, I'm not done. Then I will scoop out his eyeballs with a spoon, put it in a blender, and force feed it to him.
If Johny hurts you, that's what will happen and he will get his kicked so hard.
I love you to the ends of the earth, you're such an amazing best friend and sister I could ever ask for.<333333
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
It's ok I understand you're busy. School is important and so are friends but school is top priority! :D good luck on math I know you'll do well on your exams!!
Omg you had a fight with your brother I'm sorry :( what happened???
I had a fight with my mom on Monday morning. I got back from state at 9:30 in Sunday. I asked my mom if she could call me out for my first class because I'm so tired. I had AP US history and we had a quiz on 2 chapters that I didn't read for and it was something I couldn't guess on. Obvi I didn't tell my mom that. Well she said no. And then Monday morning I didn't wanna get up. My school starts at 7:25 am. It was already 7 but good thing I live 2 blocks away from school but is still much traffic with all the cars trying to get there. My mom started yelling at me like "Oh so you're not gonna go because everyone else isn't going to school today? Who do you think you are? You're just gonna follow what everyone else is doing!?" Like omg if too many color guard members miss school, we won't be allowed to go to state anymore. I just wanted some extra sleep and to not take the d.amn quiz!! So She was saying all this crap and calling me stupid. Well yes I am ok because I got 2 D's in both my AP classes and a D in an honors class. I'm sorry I'm not fking good enough and smart enough. And also my mom was like "don't do extracurricular activities if you can't keep up with school. Quit your extracurriculars! You should never have joined cold guard!!!!" And I just about had it and start crying and I tried to cry silently but I made really small sound that no one can hear unless you're in my room. And I started to get ready for school I didn't give a sht about being late even though I could get a detention already for having too many tardies. OMGGG that reminds me! A few weeks ago, I got pulled out of class for a minute so the lady could give me a lunch detention for being late twice. My school is strict. Well it was for the next day. Anyways lunch detention is only half of lunch but I forgot to go! I ditched technically!!! Omfggggg but people told me that they never check and if they do, I'll get a note. But I never got a note so hehehehehe I ditched lunh detention. ANYWAYS! Back to my story! My mom was yelling at me and sht. And I started putting on my makeup, trying not to cry more. I always put winged eyeliner everyday. Well my mom comes looks in my room and see me putting on makeup hen she walks out and she's like "ugh you don't need to put on makeup, no one cares how you look. Stop trying to copy the Mexicans. Don't be like the Mexicans." And I broke again. I cried silently, trying not to make sounds. She doesn't fking know sht. My mother doesn't know what I go through and that I'm insecure and makeup is what makes me feel better about myself. Winged eyeliner is POPULAR. It's a fking STYLE. Lots of people do winged eyeliner so she needs to get her fking facts straight. Stupid btchy mom. And ok I care about how I look because I'm so fking insecure about myself, she shouldn't say sht. And I'm not gonna talk to her about all my problems! She might be my mom, but I do NOT fking trust her. I trust you more than my mom. Anyways, so I leave at 7:20 and I start walking (it's cold out and snow on the ground still). Well my dad tells me to get in the car so he drives me to school. I was trying not to cry in the car. And then yeah I was late. I got there 7:25 when class started. So I go to my locker and I'm still fighting tears because I see other people late and I don't want anyone to see me cry. Well then I start going to history and I'm deciding if I should go to my counsellor because it is on my way. Well I stop where I could turn one way to history and the other way to my counselor. I chose to go to my counselor. I came in and ask if she's busy and she said no. And then I started to cry and she asked what's wrong. I didn't tell her everything but just that my mom said I'm stupid and can't handle my AP classes with extracurriculars and I was crying hard. I stayed there for like 20 minutes but I felt good because my counselor is really nice, she's young too so that helps. She made me feel better about myself. So yeah I went back to class and I had to take that stupid quiz that I probably will fail. It wasn't really a good day. I'm still mad at my mom.
Awwww I'm special? No one ever tells me that and if they do, I don't believe it. But YOU telling me, I believe it because I know that you don't lie. (Well except for one thing but I'm serious, I understand you. You had to follow what was right. I'm honestly not mad at you, I promise. I saw your tumblr reply and I swear on my life that I'm not mad. I don't care you lied, it was a good reason to and I'm glad you trust me to keep your secret. I always wondered in the pictures you send me except I shouldn't stereotype) but awwww special! You're special too, don't you ever forget that. <3 ohhhh I love you so much I hope we will meet one day. I WANT TO MEET NOW THOUGH OMFG
Sisters forever<3 awww haha I'm not perfect I make many many mistakes that I hate. But aww Joela you make me smile so much<3 I always am excited to get a comment reply from you and comment to you to update you<3
YES YES OMG I HAVE A VIDEO HERE IS THE LINK ITS ON MY YOUTUBE the uniforms are so fking ugly I hate it don't even try to tell me it looks good. All of us hate the costumes OKKKIEEE here's the link!!!! http://youtu.be/1vdYoyEA1V0
We got 4th place for our Lyrical (Let it Go) routine and 3rd for our open flag (light em up/my songs know what you did in the dark) routine
BUT UGH WE SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN 3RD FOR LYRICAL WE WERE SOOO MAD
OMGGGG I WILL SEND YOU MORE PICS TOO HOLD ON! AHHH I HAVE TO ALSO SHOW YOU THE CAKE I MADE FOR COLOR GUARD OK OK
http://s929.photobucket.com/user/tardis_timelord/library/
( The pass is wittyprofiles )
Yeah hehe I like him but we haven't talked since the fun fair thing. And nothing has happen since when he wave at me during lunch. :( noo I don't think he likes me I'm serious. Ok I don't think i told you, but last Thursday, I stayed after practice and I always leave at 6 then walk home. Well at 5:58, I saw him and I was like OMF OMF OMF OMF is he gonna say hi. But he didn't. I'm pretty sure he saw me. Lol I kept looking up at him and looking away. So he went to the front and then I start to put on my coat. But then he goes back to the vending machines and its like 3.5 meter away from where I am and I'm like OMF OMF I'm too obvious but I was going to leave. And he bought something in the vending machine and start walking to the front. And then I start walking to the front and I see him walk outside. So then I walk outside and I walk towards him a little but I had to go the other way to walk home but idk I think he saw me because just omg. And I got home and I was like UGH I FKING SHOULD HAVE SAID HI. Well then in the next day, I was walking with my friend after math, and the hallway was crowded. I walk like 4 meter and I look up and I saw Ian and smiled. I didn't even think about it I just smiled at him and I was like omfg did I just fking do that. It was really crowded in the hall and I almost brushed past him. But I'm pretty sure he saw me I mean come on he was right there. But idk he didn't do anything just kept walking so idk. And then omfg yesterday (Tuesday) at lunch I kept sneaking looks at him. He's just 2 tables in front of me I can't resist hahaha hehehe omg. Anyways after lunch I was talking to my friends and waiting until he started walking to class and I waited on purpose and when he left I told them ok bye. And then so I started walking and I sorta followed him lol omg I'm such a stalker. Anyways I was going to study hall and was about to find out where his class is. So I took the long way and then I saw him again and I'm pretty sure he saw me idk I saw him out of the corner of y eye. I wanted to say hi but I was so shy to and then we were next to each other but from a distance and I was screaming in my head for him to say hi because I'm to fking shy. But then I saw him go to his classroom and it was in the orchestra room. He's not in orchestra. I was like OMFFFFFFFFGGGG he's in guitar! Because at my school, the orchestra teaches guitar also for people who want to learn and guess what this year I almost took guitar because I really wanna learn how to play. Well I go to study hall and me and this other girl always get a pass to go to the band room to get away from annoying people and also to practice flags. But now the season is over T_T and we don't have anything else to do anymore. Anyways, on the way to band, I told her that I had to go talk to the orchestra teacher because he wants me to do pit orchestra for the spring musical which is Sound of Music!!!! And yeaaaahhhh I went to talk to the orchestra teacher and I saw Ian and omf he was turned around so he didn't see me. I was talking to the orchestra teacher and was hoping that Ian would see me but idk. And after I was done talking, I turned around to go to study hall and I saw Ian but he was talking to his friend so I don't know if he noticed me. AHHHH I'm freaking out too much over him and we've only talked twice and ugh. But omfg there's a fun fair thing that I'm volunteering to help out with for half the time and I wanna ask Ian if he wants to come help out with me and then the rest of the time hang out but I don't think I would have the balls to ask him that I mean we haven't talked and just fml idk what to do.
Oh I don't think you're weird for being in 6th and liking someone in 4th. Normal is boring I don't care about being normal. Once I tried being normal and it was terrible. Haaaa tbh I did that too it was so weird. And like lol when I was in 3rd grade I liked this guy who was in 5th grade and haha I only liked him because he was hot that's all. And in 4th grade I was in a spelling bee and they had it live for the whole school to watch and omg at that time, I didn't care. Anyways, I got pretty far in the all school spelling bee. And then I spelled a word wrong and I had to go back to my classroom to watch the rest of it. Everybody was watching in their classrooms. Anyways I was walking back and I saw him and I was like omg an he passed by and he said "nice job in the spelling bee." And I said thanks and after I was like fangirling about it. I liked that guy from 3rd to 6th omg and fck he also lived in the same street as me hehehe I would always see him in the summer.
But yeah the only guys I like are older than me or younger and almost never in the same age as me -.-'
Hahahahahha I'm your only best friend isn't wifi, food, and tumblr also your best friend! Heheheee but awwwwe I know I am your best friend and baby you are my best friend forever<3 I will never forget about you<3 love youuuuuuu <333333
Yeahh some cute 14 year old asked me to dance it was so adorable haha OMFFFFFGGGGGGGG one day imma come kidnap you and bring you to one of the dances ok and guys seriously ask you to dance. I mean not every guy asks to dance but a lot ask girls. Awww I have to take you to one ok imma steal you I'm buying a ticket right now. Be ready at midnight<3
HAAAAAAAAA OMG DID I POST IT TO FACEBOOK ha omg lol should I!? Hahaha lol you want to see Ty's reaction!! Omg I'm so mean but I wanna see that tooooo HAHAHAHAHA omgg ohhhh I should post it lol. He stalks my profile too so I know he would see it AHAHAHAA
Lol I KNOW I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD WHEN I MADE IT UP OMG hahaha talented? I should be in a comedy show? Lol omg me and my little sister made a video to Best of Both Worlds by Hannah Montana and we were dancing and pushing each other and sht. And this one guy was like you two should be on YouTube. Looool but you're funny too!!! Just omg I was so p.issed off at him you have no idea. Once I was telling someone that I didn't intend to get back together with him. I was like fck I should make a parody! So I did looool
Yes please go slap Derek he's so fking annoying. I mean he's my friend but I realize this year how annoying he is.
Omgggg 2 meter that's so tall wtff that's insane I wish I was taller T_T
OH MY T.ITS THAT BTCH!!!! I'M GONNA FKING SLAP HER SHTLESS!!!!
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
So she writes a nice letter about your funny moments together but not asking for forgiveness. Wow just wow. Girl you did the right thing to stop talking to her. UGH why does many people do this to you?! It hurts me to know that people have the dignity to go around hurting you. I can't even. I will slap every single one of those btches. No please save the best for someone who you know will be the best. Pleaaaaase promise me you will save your friendship for someone who is truly worth it and someone you know will be a true friend.
OH MY FKING SHT T.ITS HE IS FKING HOT. OH HOT DAAAAAAMMMMMMNNN. WELL FCK DO I LIKE HIM? OF COURSE OH JEEZ THAT HOTNESS OMFG OHHHHHHHHHHHH
JJJOOOOEEEEELLLLLAAAAAA YOU GOT GOOD TASTE ;D
Awww I'm glad he makes you smile and feel good<3 awwwweee so cute that you remember your middle school moments hahahaha cutieeeeees
Oh and also by deleting it do you mean delet the whole comment? Because I like to save all my comments from you but that's ok if you need me to delete it because of hot guy pic, I will. I'm little confused so I delete the whole comment? Idkkk helppp lol
Hmmmm Johny has been acting nice lately? I bet he got jealous you and the hot guy. HAAAAAA TAKE THAT JOHNY!!! Well I'm glad you feel good. He deserves to not talk to that . First he is treating you like sht but not he's not? Well he better get his sht together. Or else I will personally tell him that he better not try playing you and treat you bad or else I will show him what is like. Lol once one of my friend, he said: get a cheese grater and grate their skin, then put salt on it.
And then I added to put vinegar also! That is PAAAIIIIINNNN!!!
And then, after he sees all that and screams in agony, I'm not done. Then I will scoop out his eyeballs with a spoon, put it in a blender, and force feed it to him.
If Johny hurts you, that's what will happen and he will get his kicked so hard.
I love you to the ends of the earth, you're such an amazing best friend and sister I could ever ask for.<333333
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
OH MY GOSH JOELA BABY I LOVE YOU<3
You make me smile so so so so so so so so and a million infinity times so much <3 I will always be here for you and this on your profile " just come to reply to Amy cause she's the only one who cares bye!" awww of COURSE I care! I fking care so much okay I will never stop caring because you are the most amazing bestest best best best friend ever
Actually no you're not
You're my sister<3 You're my best friend older sister that i never had (because I'm the oldest and only have a annoying little sister lololol)
Of course I understand you it's okay don't worry about it<3 I would never hate you :(
I LOVE YOUUUU<3
okaaayy so LOL I started writing a comment to you in my email because i will forget what i want to say to you and yes I did forget and good thing I wrote it down because I remember what to say now

OMG Winter colorguard is going to state this weekend can you believe it!!!! Ahhh I forgot to tell you that our JV team (everyone) got a qualification for state on our first competition<3 and our Varsity team (more advanced people, I'm in it and it only my first season!!!!) well we didn't have a routine yet for Varsity so our (second) competition which would be the first one for Varsity, we got a qualification for state and we only learned it in 3 days!! ANYWAYS! SO YEAH!! WE GOIN' TO STATE, BABY!!!! Oh sht I forgot you are not in 'Murica. *FACEPALM THAT IS NOT A FACEPALM BUT ACTUALLY TURNS OUT TO BE POUNDING MY HEAD REPEATEDLY ON THE TABLE* okAY! SO! Oh *facepalm* you know ahm.. yeah 50 states in America and stuffs and stuffs. well basically anything like a contest or a game starts out in the school area. Then there are sectionals which is basically the in school area and other schools in your immediate area. Then there are regionals which is people from different sectionals. Then there is state which is everybody (who made it past sectionals then regionals). LOOOL so yeah but for a color guard competition, there's just a regular contest and then State. Omg it's hard to explain I hope you get it lol. But yeah OMG I MUST SHOW YOU VIDEOS OKAY! I'll get a videos for you!!! I think I already told you that there is Open Flag and Lyrical Flag. Open Flag is JV and we're doing My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark by FALLL OUT BOYYYYY<3 and Lyrical Flag is Varsity and we're doing Let it Go from FROZEN!!! OMGG
YOU MUST SEE IT AHHH! Omg there's this one group whose song is What Makes you beautiful except 1D isn't singing it, it's a cover of it idk who sings it but it's beautiful. Hopefully I'll get to record it!! I wanna record a bunch of color guard shows because they are amazing and just omg

Yeah so about Ian... idk I'm pretty sure that I like him hehehehe *nervous laugh* idk I just get all happy and smiley when I see him. I haven't talked to him since last week and the last time anything happened was when he waved to me at lunch on monday hehehe!! :) and :p Anyways I want to ask him to stay after school sometime because I just want to talk to him and get to know him more lol lol lol
I'm glad though that I'm not the only one who like never has crushes on someone same age. YEAH OMG SAAAME GIRL!!! I always like guys younger than me or older than me omg our problems ;-; ahahaaa idk if even he likes me imean we just met soooo oh who cares lol I like him omg he makes me smile but YOUUUU make me smile the most<3 i love youuuuuu such amazing best friend that you are<3

awww ily too im glad you think im amazing and you are too ok<3 ehehee... you said you have exams but you laying there replying to your gorgeous best friend. i was like who are you talking about then I was like oh fck that's me lol i'm a little slow today I'm so tired

UGHHHHHHH YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE IT (YOU PROBABLY WILL BELIEVE IT LOL)
but UGHH ugh ugh ugh just fking ugh. So I keep forgetting to tell you about how many times Ty tries to facebook message me. And hah he me off so fking much just ugh he doesn't get it!!
Lol and like since February 8th, OMG FEBRUARY 8TH!! AHH HOW COULD I FORGET! OK REWIND!!! So on February 8th, I had another one of those Mormon youth group dances I have told you about. HeHEEEEE!!! Ok so yeah it was super fun and also my sister's first one because she's 14. well technically she was still 13 but her bday was 3 days later so she was allowed to go. oh b t dubs, the age for the dances are 14-18. ANYWAYS! My sister brought her friend and her friend is one of those "I think I'm so cool" girls, and she's not the type that would go all out and crazy dancing and stuff. soooo yeah one guy asked me to dance he was like 14 but he was cuute heehehe. And I found out my sister's friend thought some guy was hot and I told her I will ask him to dance with her friend. And so the next slow song, I went up to the guy and I asked if he would dance with my friend (meaning my sister's friend). Lol I got them to slow dance hahaha. but my sister didn't dance at all. Nothing. She was all like ahhh people will think I'm weird. But at those dances, no one cares what you look like because most of us dontt know to dance anyways lolllololol. ANYWAYS GETTING TO THE POINT!!!! One of the songs that played was We Are Never Ever getting Back together and I was like OHHHHHHH HOT D.AMN i am mean! The first thing I thought was Ty and I was like oh damnnnn this song is for him, btch! I wanted to post the song on facebook and tag my friends I was jamming and dancing with, and say "this is my JAM!". Because I knew that Ty stalks my profile and he would see it. Like dammmmn girl, I'm mean! WOOO! But I never got around to doing it. But omg on tuesday night, I remembered it and I was like OMG and I started writing a parody to it ahahahha!! I'm almost done I will show you. But yesterday I found thiis funny a.ss parody on youtube I was laughing so hard. I'm gonna share that on facebook and lol I know he will see it. Wowwowow look at me so mean :O

Oh why the h.ell not, I'll just show you most of my parody. I just need to finish one more part but here's what I have so far. LOL. You should listen to the song while you read my unfinished parody
Here it goes!! ~
I remember when I dumped you the first time
Saying this is it, I've had enough 'cause like we never even really talked before
Until someone set me up [what?]
Then I come around again and say
Sorry, I was mean and can we be friends again? [Forgive me.]
Well this time it had lasted for 2 months
I say, "i'm busy," we break up, you text me, "I love you."
OooOOooh I got again last night
but ooOOoOoH this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never f.king ever getting back together
We are never f.king ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk to my friends talk to me
But we are never f.king ever getting back together [like...ever.]
I'm really gonna miss me telling lies
And you falling for it, believing every word
And you make me mad and I try to calm down
With this emo music that's much cooler than Christian rap
OooOOooh got off again tonight
but ooOOoOoH this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never f.king ever getting back together
We are never f.king ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk to my friends talk to me
But we are never f.king ever getting back together

LOLLL so mean!!! That is all for now what I have!^^ Sooooo???!!! What do you think of it??? Lol lol

OMFG SERIOUSLY!!! Can I go slap those btches in the face!!! First what Johnny said and now that btch is ditching you! UGHH MAKES ME SO MAD!
Okay Johnny is being a d.ckhead about you being short like that's so stupid like ok
OmFG today this guy that used to like me his name is Derek I think I TOLD YOU ABOUT HIM oops caps ANYWAYS!! Yeah he was like you're so short Amanda haha you look like a freshman like some of these freshman are taller than you, do you feel out of place here at this school? And I wanted to say yes but I don't trust him and Im not comfortable telling him my problems and sht but I lied i was like ok i'm fine. And also he is like really tall so that makes it even worse
UGH SHORT PEOPLE PROBLEMS

And OMGGGG I WILL GO SLAP THAT BTCH IN THE FACE sorry but she's not being a good friend to you and ditching you. Don't waste your tears on her okay? She doesnt deserve it. Ohhhhhmygooooddd i hate her because you hate her and also i hate her because of what she did just OMFG
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Okaaay so continuing my story I was gonna write yesterday but didn't have time...
SO! On last wednesday after winter colorguard practice, I was talking to this girl in it also her name is Meredith she's a senior. And also her little brother he's a sophmore. Anyways so blah blah blah we are talking, and there is this freshman that is friends with Merediths little brother and he comes up to him and says hi. And he just hangs around listening to our convesation. Anyways something happens I forgot what but her little brother found out i am a junior and was like "if you were younger, I would ask you out" and I was like *nervous* hehehehh... ^^ and said to him heehehe... I dated someone who was a year younger than me and it didn't turn out too well.. and then they had to leave because their mom picked them up. So it was just me and that freshman. I've seen him around school and hehe he's kinda cute he's like nerdy cute and ahahahaha but like I think he's cute. He's blonde and has that flippy hair... but anyways he was like "so it's just you and me..." and im like *fangirling* and I say "yeah..." and then idk for some reason I told him a super short story of the guy I dated last year that didn't end well.. Basically i told him that the guy I dated was a d.ck and that he broke up with me because of the crap my friends said. I turned around and he was like idk 15 feet away (isk how many meters that is and lol im to lazy to convert it right now -.- ) but anyways and i was like oh he's right there and i hope he heard that! and so yeah we talked a little more and then he saw his friend and went over to his friend. and then 2 days later on friday, my friend Kim invited me to come with her to take her little sister to this fun fair thing at her school. So I went and one of the games was this beanbag throw thing that you have to knock over this thing. And I saw that same cute guy and I was like o.o OMG OMG OMG OMG. He was working at that game booth and he looked up and when he saw me,he smiled and gave me the sup nod. and i was all like AHHHHHHHHHHHH *FANGIRL* *SCREAM* except that inside my head. I smiled back at him. and hehehe these 2 girls, one i knew her from band but the other I met that night. and anyways, they told me they were gonna play the game but then throw the last bean bag at the guy. and i was like lol. me and kim found out that they actually did it, it was funny. and me and kim went over to play the game, and cute freshman was like "you know her?!" i said yes. anyways Kim threw 2 bean bags (we get 3). and then cute freshman gave the the last one and asked if I wanted to try. I'm like sure, and I look at the thing I had to knock down but then I threw it at his stomach. lol lol he was like ahh! And jokingly he said, I'm not being nice to you anymore!! and i'm like noooo! lol
and then yesterday (monday) I was at lunch and he is 2 tables in front of me. And I saw him and I was like hehehehe omg. And a few minutes later, he looked over to me and he knew that I saw him. And he waved to me and smiled. hehe i wave back. BUT OMFG i'm just getting too fking excited I just met him last week jeez. But in my opinion he is cute. But he's a freshman T_T why must I be such a cougar. like seriously I've liked guys who are younger than me. just 1 or 2 years younger. ughhhhhhh problems -.- but idk would you care if I dated a freshman??? Well he probably doesn't like me, only thinks of me as a friend. but idk dating a freshman.... is that too young for me...? I mean ik age doesnt matter but there's an age gap where it starts to get too big
idk but I kinda like that freshman. Oh btw i forgot to tell you his name is Ian.
idkkkk thoughhhh..... like eh idk I haven't told anyone yet except you. i haven't even told kim that I kinda like Ian, soooo.... idk it's just omg
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Awww baby <3 *HUGS TIGHT*
About your message on tumblr... I COMPLETELY understand<3 it's okaaaay nothing has changed. My parents want me to do that too and if they find out, ohhh I would be so dead. That's okay I'm glad you trust me and I PROMISE I will keep your secret. It's okay pleaseeee don't hate yourself okay babe? <3 You had to follow what your mom says <33 I'm glad you trust me so muchhhh<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
And omg REALLY they won't let you come here unless married?! ughhhh I should send you money to come here lol lol I wish probably I won't have enough T_T weeelll then I will come hunt you down in Spain!!! weeee :D hahahaa and mee tooooo i WANT TO MEET YOU SO BAD JUST OMG!! OH I'M IN CAPS OOPS LOL okay no caps anymore XD
OkAY seriously! I HIGHLY doubt guys don't like you because you're short. Who cares about short would you rather be taller than a guy you like? I don't care if you are short it doesn't matter to me, you are still awesome and amazing and funny and someone I could talk to forever, and just EVERYTHING. Your personality matters more than your appearance. There are guys out there who are so fking hot but they could be the btchiest person ever. But you my dear, are fking gorgeous and beautiful, AND your personality is asdfghjkl AMAZING<3 I don't see why those guys can't see that. Ok so no one asked you out this year, well maybe he is just too shy and afraid you will reject him. There is lots of guys that I would ask out if I had the guts but I'm afraid of rejection. The right guy is waiting for you, just be patient<3 I seriously do not get why any guy wouldn't ask you out ughh seriously if I was a guy I would have ask you out by now.
omG you will not believe what happen ughhh I don't have enough time to tell I will tell you in the next comment but heheee omg it's a guy :) (no I did not get asked out but new crush heheheheee)
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Hello there my lovely<3
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! <3
I'M TAKING YOU AS MY VALENTINE I'M NOT EVEN ASKING YOU<3
Here is a song for you<3 (I didn't sing lol) Even though it's old-ish, I still think it's perfect. Listen to the words <3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=csnTfdfnU5Y
GO LISTEN TO THE SONG RIGHT NOW BEFORE YOU READ THE REST OF THE COMMENT. LISTEN TO THE SONG WHILE YOU'RE READING MY COMMENT
Okayyy are you listening to the song now?
Yes ok:)
YEAH<3 you are a true friend Joela and even though lately I haven't been able to go much on, you still love meee<3
Ahhh so I will start out by saying that I KNOW you are beautiful and flawless and just asdfghjkl; you're just so amazing and funny and oh I love that you're so understanding. You totally get me and always there for me and I promise I will always be there for you<3 I can tell you everything baby and I know you won't judge me and that is the same for you. I love you Joelaaaa you're such amazing best friend<3
Awww us two can just spend valentine's day lonely and forever alone T_T with our food and wifi<3
I'm so sorry i haven't been on a lot but my dad blocked witty at home so I can't use it at home. And yesss OMFFFFDDDDG (ohhhh mmmyyyy f.ckingggg d.aaaamn gooooddddd) iPhone!!! but no internet or wifi on it, my dad set a restrictions passcode. just ugh ugh ugh. ANd he took away my text because I'm "texting" too much hahahaha who texts me hahaha not the d.ck ex that's for sure. But anyways yes I can only get on in school and it sucks and just omg.

Yes don't look at him. that dou.che bag doesn't even deserve someone as amazing and good as you. You're so much better than him, you better believe that, baby. Well you will find a better guy, I know you will. Someone that will love you and not be a d.ck and someone who deserves someone as amazing and funny as you!!!
I don't care if you vent to me sometimes you just need to let it out, ok? Don't blow up so just tell me everything when you feel you need to vent.
But yeah omg Ty is such a jerk. I'm glad you understand me. Well yeah so ik I'm mean about this, but I wanted to find some guy who would "Be" my valentine and then post a pic on facebook lol. or get one of his friends to be my valentine but LOOOOL no
but no I do not f.cking want him all over me just no no no no H.ELLLL NO
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①ⒹⒻⒶⓃ ⒾⓈ ⓂⓎ ⒷⒻⒻ❣ღ* · 1 decade ago
Awww baby
yeah I'm fine i just had enough of his bs. Like he's a nice guy, but different than I thought him to be. He's like too demanding too clingy. Yeahhh.... no. LOL but I'm fine like yeah I actually dumped him in December it's crazy I've been saving this long a/ss story but I haven't had time and just omf omf
awww :c I'm sorry about your grandpa I wish I was there to hug you <333 awww
omg ok I will now go and personally kick his a.ss!!!! SERIOUSLY omFG Johnny should not play you! f.ck just wooow. I'm so sorry. He's being a d.ick and an a.sshole and a bunch of other stuff that I could list.
awww don't cry</3 I wish I was there as your bestest friend to hug you and like be there for you. Like legit, if you called me at 1 am, then I would come to your house with a bunch of tissues and Mean Girls or Pitch Perfect or both, and lots of ice cream and chocolate, pizza, soda/pop, and I would seriously legit bring everything.
I miss you too<3 my dad did soemthing with my wifi at home and I can't get on Witty or Tumblr or like any sites I like to go on. the f.ck did he do? T_T i wish I could be hanging out with you. life here is just screwed up. I mean i have friends i guess but they're not really friends and sometimes just so freaking annoying :p

okie here's most of the message I saved
JOELA JOELA JOELA JOELA JOELA JOELA JOELA JOELA JOELA JOELA
IDK EVEN WHERE TO START OMFG
I'M SO SORRY I'VE BEEN A TERRIBLE FRIEND AND LIKE HAVEN'T BEEN ON ALL THE TIME FOR SO LONG AND OMFG I'M SORRY I FEEL LIKE I'VE DITCHED YOU BUT I WOULD NEVER EVER EVER EVER DITCH YOU
AND LIKE OMG I CAN'T EVEN
MY DAD DID SOMETHING TO MY INTERNET AT HOME AND IT WON'T LET ME GO ON TUMBLR OR WTTY OR OR FB OR LIKE ANYTHING
WAHHHHH I'M SORRY T_T
ok first I will reply to your comment and omg then I will update you with my news and yeah lol ok so yeah haha
awww you made a pinger just for me awww baby ilysomuch you are seriously my best friend ever like I would call no one else but you my best friend
oh that sucks i wish your family would be together in christmas again. my family is boring too and so fking annoying its just omf. and haaa i get you, my life is boring too. all I do is go on witty and tumblr when I can. witty and tumblr is so fun but then I realize thaat I am in the computer all the time hahahahaha ohhh that's funny. but when I DO get on the computer then I can talks to my best friend EVER of manyyyyyyyyy so much times<3 that's you babe<3
omg he's so tall and he sit down to kiss you awwww c: cute cute. omg you should see this one guy in my school he is so tall and it like scares me like idk it scare me how tall he is like 1.82 meters tall!!!! like omg he has to bend under the doors to get through its so crazy like omg
oh dont worry my sister is shorter than you. and my mom thinks my sister will get taller than me just hahahaha my sister doesnt eat any vegetables only like canned and processed foods. ewwww. like omg my sister is such picky eater!
well ok who cares if you are shorter than me? idc like all I care is that I haves a beautiful and funny and amazing bestest friend that I can always talk to! that's all I care ok you are my best friend it doesnt matter to me that you arent perfect because no one is. i still love you many many many many maaaaaaaaaaaaaany times
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww you're welcome im glad you are the best friend you ever wanted awwww same here babe ohmg omg ommmmgggg why do we have to be so far from each other ughhhhhh I wish we can be in the same school
reallly omg a rich guy and your cousin is engaged to him OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG hey hes rich all the free wifi and free food you can get! lol jk jk jk. Well ok I don't think you lost your chance like ok well there's other people too and like psh he's rich haha ok not like that means everything lol jk jk jk jk. I wish I had some rich guy or even if I was rich wowow. yeah you dont like him so it doesnt really matter lol. omg would your cousin like buy you stuffs for your birthday and christmas and stuffs like if you two are like bffs lol no idk prob not lol. but omg RICHHHHHHH lol
aww i hope I'll be here for new year's eve too!!!! maybe idk
but OMFG IT'S ALMOST 2014 WHAT THE ACTUAL FCK! I SWEAR, YESTERDAY WAS LIKE 2011 WTFFFFF
guess what my new years resolution is? it's: to finish all of my resolutions! hahaha yayayay YAY it will be so easy lol just one haha lol idk

ok so now for my very long update to you. beware, it is like....omg I have no words to describe so that is why I will tell you the whole story and starting from november 29th. but like ok not the whole story, but like the details and we fast forward and stuff ok haha lol. ok here goes...
ok Joela omg so where even should I start? oh idkkk well I told you what happened at Gameworks with Ty, right? Gameworks is like a huge videogames and arcade place. and how me, Kim, Zion, and 2 other guys went. And then I invited Ty. Well technically I invited Kim and she invited her guy she has a crush on, and I invite ty. then i told her if her guy doesn't come, we can invite more people so she doesn't feel an awkward third wheel. so it like ended up as a huge group kinda. Kim's crush couldn't come. So she was sad and I told her that I won't ditch her and I'll be there as a good friend. well Ty ended up dragging me off to "play games" and trying to find a place to get away from everyone. He kept f/cking making out with me! It was cute the first time, but then I got suuuuper annoyed as h/ell. and then he like stuck his tongue in my mouth and well idek what to do! I seriously was like clueless and didn't know what to do!! Never happen to me before so I kinda followed what he did. but EWWWWWWW I really dont like french kissing. its not for me. no no no ew just no. and then he kept forcing his tongue ohhhhh I was so . All I wanted to do was play videogames and HE just f/cking wanted to f.cking make out with me. Like usually, it's the other way around -- the girl want to make out and the guy want to play video games. but it was the opposite which is like weird. ANYWAYS! so the story after that, well I was f/king off that Ty kept making out with me and dragged me away from Kim (and meh other friends) when I told Kim that I would be there for her. Well, so after that, I was just done. I had it with him.
And then the next day, he texted me. He was all like last night was amazing and that kissing me gets better every time. And I tell you about the text about...oh here it was annoying me and what he wrote to me. he text: "I know. I want you with me right now. I want you. To run my hands along your body and kiss you. To let them climb up your back, and grasp your hands and touch your legs. All of you, and just a touch." I mean WHAT THE ACTUAL F.CK touch my LEGS!!!! NO F/CKING WAY UGGGGH like YO I don't want him to f.cking touch my legs. Like I swear, sometimes I think he gets h.orny when he texts me. Well the texts are cute kinda, but SERIOUSLY. just...idkkkkkkkkk. Oh and another weird one was "Wrap up under a blanket and then just hold you and let my hands explore you. I'd make you gasp for breath with every touch, take your breath away with my kiss." UGHHHHHHHH WTFFFFFFFF "let my hands EXPLORE ME" AHHHHHH! NOOOO. Then he tried making like a funny joke or something, he text me "we never do much talking... lots of communicating with our mouths though lol." UGH! that was NOT funny to me. And then later, that one long a/ss text that I told you about when I asked why why why and why me and everything. And I already told you he replied with the long a/ss text. Well it kinda annoyed me that he wanted to try and convert me to HIS religion. Like I'm not gonna freaking convert just because my bf wants me to convert. Just because we are dating, doesn't mean that I will change MY beliefs just to be the same religion as him. No no and H/ELL NO. NO! That's like saying I'm gonna go to the same college/university as my bf JUST BECAUSE he is gonna go there. Nope and NOPE. Yeah so like idk. What do you think? Lols I'm not asking like relationship advices or anything, just do you think maybe I'm over reacting? idkkkkkk. Oh and another text he send was"I got super bummed watching all the couples kissing in the halls and wishing I had you..." AND omFGGGGGGGGGGG but SERIOUSLY!!! Because ugh idek. ugh ugh ugh ugh. I don't want to make out all the time! I really dont care much for making out. Like with my ex Julian, he respected me, at least. And like we cute and everything. He kissed me, but not all the time, and we never maked out. Ugh but then Ty, he texts me stuff and like OMF here's another text that me off. "I wish you were here. Snuggled up under the covers with me. Maybe foolin' around a bit. Luaghing, kissing, talking, touching... Lover's pillow talk and jokes. Your lips and tongue taste delicious. I love the feel of your back, your hands, your legs. Oh I wish I had you where I could show you with passion how I missed you. Not worried about time or discovery. Just to hold you up against me. Would you want that? And I loved stealing kisses at Gameworks. But I loved it even more when I stopped caring and just had you. I need you. I need your head on my chest. I need your lips." FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!! OK like i seriously think he was h.rny when he sent me that text. Like seriously. under the covers, folling around. touching. I think it's weird that he says I taste "delicious." heh heh HEH! Thanks but i'm not f.cking FOOD! ugh and how he likes how I feel/ And OMFGGGGGGG It sounds like he was whining when he text the crap about "nneeding me."
*whines* ohhhh I NEEEEEED your lips. NEED NEED NEED!
okkkk hmm lets start putting days in. SO!
On Monday December 9, I started feeling sh/tty that day. I was cold, even though I had a sweater on, had a headache, and my hold body was sore and aching muscles. I thought I felt hot (as in temperature) but I thought it was only me. I felt really super tired and thought it was only because I had a color guard competition the day before that. All I really wanted to do was sleep. Oh and for lunch, I wasn't that hungry and only ate some Doritos. And then i had color guard practice after school. I still felt crappy and tired. But this time, add that I felt dizzy. I could barley stand up. I felt like fainting. I still thought it was just cause I'm tired. Well after practice, I go home. well not yet. I texted my sister about how I feels and because i had to go to piano lesson but I didn't want to. So when I got home, I go straight to my bed. It was like 6pm. My mom came in and took my temperature. It was like 102 degrees F. Oh that doesn't mean any to you lol. Hold on. converting. So my temperature was like 39 Celsius. OMFG. I had a fever and I knew I should have went to the nurse during the school. Well anyways I sleep from 6pm to 11pm. I was dizzy and could barely walk. ANYWAYS! So I checked my phone to see if anyone text me. I had 1 message. It was from someone just sending me a pic of her christmas wishlist. Nothing from Ty. I stayed home feeling like sh.t for the rest of the week.
And the next day December 10. Ty texted me "Hey we might need to readjust our limits physically... I know this isn't really the proper wat to do it, through text and all. But it's near impossible face to face. Pun absolutely intended. But in all seriousness I feel like I haven't respected you physically when we have been together. It's my fault. I haven't quite yet controlled my . I'm sorry for that. I just see people in the hallways at school making out and stuff and I think I don't want that. Then I realize that that is how I treat you. I think I don't want that. I want to treat you with respect and dignity. I don't really know what I want. I just know that the way we act in public isn't what I want, and I shouldn't be alone with you... So I suppose how we act in public will be the only way we act together by that logic. I don't know. This is a relationship so I need your input too." I saw it but I didn't wanna reply so I replied like half hour later but I didn't really answer him. I complained that I've been feeling crappy and blah blah blah. Lol complained. Uhm ok first off, what he said, I haven't quite yet controlled my . Uhm...OK! What's that supposed to mean?! That he always want to kiss me all the f.cking time and that he proooooooobably wants to have s.ex with me?!?!!!!!????!!! OMG IDK JUST OMF. And then that he sees people in the hallways making out and he THINKS he doesn't want that. Just WTFFFFFF. Wtf does he want then. Uhm ok well with ME, I don't pay attention when people make out in the halls. I'm just like ew, get away from me peasants. Go get a room. Sure, I see them, but I don't wish for it. Even then, i dont really feel like im in a relationship since I barely see him and he goes to a different school anyways. So like, I usually just go through my normal school day. I don't really want anything.And so anyways! I was sick with a really high fever so I did NOT have any energy and I slept like all day, like literally. I could barely write that text to him. My phone is not touch screen...I have a keypad...my phone looks like a Blackberry but it;s not... ANYWAYS he reply like 40 minutes later with "Alright well I hope you get better. Drink fluids and sleep. I love you." OKSOWTF!!!!! He said he HOPES I get better ok ok ok okkkkkk so jeez have some faith in me, I'm not gonna die or anything.
Ok so then the next day Wed. December 11, I texted him "Hey" that's all. I was bored at home. And I got no reply. I was like, OK then!
And then the next day he replied to me and explain about last night. He said "Hey... sorry for the late reply, I was out late serving last night so I didn't really get a chance to reply. I also really didn't know how to reply... Lol I have the nasty habit of overthinking things... I don't know.. I really want this relationship but I'm not sure what I want in it or from it. So I'm thinking and maybe overthinking. I'm in love with you, I don't know what kind or how I do. But I do. I need to figure out what's best for both of us... I'm trying to figure it out. I want us to have a balance of the physical (cause I'm not giving up kissing you) and the emotional and the Godly. I love you Amanda." WTF SERIOUSLY, he didn't know how to f.king reply. and OKKKKK he wants the relationship but he doesn't know what he wants in it or from it. I don't even... And he says he loves me but doesn't know what kind or HOW!! omfffffff I just... Ohhh and you will think I'm so f/cking mean after I tell you what I thought. So what got me SO , ok so when he text the part where it says "I want us to have a balance of the physical (cause I'm not giving up kissing you) and the emotional and the Godly." Ok so just OMFFFFFFFFFG he f.king doesn't wanna f.cking give up f.cking kissing me???!!!! HE DOES NOT WANT TO GIVE IT UP!!! It makes me so f.cking you have nooo f.cking idea. omf swearing too much im sorry it's just that one part got me so . And here's what I thought INSIDE my head, it was so mean: " I'm sorry. This isn't gonna work out. You don't wanna give up kissing me? Well you can kiss my a$$ goodbye. " [Like *black girl voice* ooooooh girrrrrl!] Just omf that's what I was thinking omf it is SUCH a comeback and so mean omg. Oh my frick. I can't. Ok so my reply was " I don't know. What I do know is I want you to figure out what you want in this relationship and what you want from it. I need you to let me know. To be honest, it kinda bothers me that you don't know what you want, and in the one text I sent you a couple weeks ago asking why you chose me and you said it was because I was there. Also last night I was so bored because I've basically stayed in bed almost the whole day since Monday night... I haven't talked to much people other than my family. Well anyways. I don't know. Sometimes I have second thoughts. What I have realized is that I don't think it's gonna work for me if we're always kissing. I don't know, I'm just not..it's just...I don't...I don't really care much about kissing. I guess. Well we both need time and space to think about this." And then he reply with "Yeah I get it... I also figured out how ridiculous the amount of times I kiss you is. And how ridiculous I make you look. I don't know I have trouble finding balance. I'm working on it. I'm sorry if you didn't feel valued when I told you why it was you. It didn't and doesn't make me love you less. I don't know if this is right, but I'm a bit sick right now and my judgement isn't the best now." And omg so I reply with "I don't know how to respond. I don't want to always be making out. All in all, kissing's not really my thing. I don't know. I'm just not really that kind of girl. Do note that I've been sick since Monday, so I really don't have much energy to think very hard. I do want you to figure things out." And then he didn't answer after that. Then at like around 7:30 I seriously accidentally sent a text to him that was supposed to be for someone else- Kim. And I was talking to her about Ty. So I forwarded my last text that I sent Ty to my friend. And then in another text right after, I sent "That's the last text I sent him and I know." Except because my phone is so slow at sending texts. Like if it's a long text it takes a long time, a short text takes a shorter time. Well the message does cancel, but not really. it only delays the message so I hoped it didn't send. But it did. He asked me like 2 hours later what it meant and even if it wasn't meant for him, he wants to know. Well OMF he WANTS to know! Ok! Does he not trust me?! I CAAAAN talk to other guys! (even though I was talking about him but he don't know) ugh ugh ugh ugh Well I lied to him and told him my friend made me text someone and it's complicated. He reply and said he hopes it will get worked out.
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