DEAR BOY,
ONE DAY I WISH YOU WOULD SEE ME FOR WHO I AM. THE COMPLIMENTS MEAN NOTHING UNLESS YOU LOVE ME BACK. YOU SAY YOU DONT WANT TO HURT ME, BUT IT HURTS ME MORE WHEN YOU REFUSE ME. EVEN IF ITS IN THE NICEST WAY. I KNOW YOU NEVER WANT TO SEE ME CRY, BUT ONE DAY YOU MIGHT. I KNOW WHAT YOU SAID WHEN YOU ACCIDENTALLY SENT THAT TEXT TO ME, THAT I NEED T SUCK IT UP BECAUSE THATS LIFE. WELL, YEAH. ITS THE LIFE IVE BEEN LIVING FOR 3 YEARS, AND I HAVE SUCKED IT UP ABOUT AS MUCH AS I CAN. NO IM NOT MAD, AND NO I'M NOT BREAKING, BUT ONE DAY I WILL. I WISH YOU KNEW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO WANT SOMETHING SO BADLY BUT YOU'LL NEVER HAVE IT. BUT WHAT AM I SAYING, MAYBE YOU DO? MAYBE THERE'S ANOTHER GIRL THAT YOU HAVENT TOLD A SINGLE SOUL ABOUT AND LOVE HER LIKE I LOVE YOU. IF YOU HAD TOLD SOMEONE, I WOULD KNOW BY NOW. AS MUCH AS YOU TRY TO HIDE THINGS TO KEEP ME FROM HURTING, THEY DON'T STAY HIDDEN. SOMEONE TELLS ME. I KNEW EACH TIME YOU'VE FALLEN FOR ONE OF MY FRIENDS. I JUST WANT TO KNOW, WHAT DON'T I HAVE? YOU DESCRIBE ME AS BEAUTIFUL, SMART, NICE, AND OBVIOUSLY, IN LOVE WITH YOU. YOU EVEN SAID YOU DON'T KNOW WHY YOU DON'T LIKE ME. WHAT MORE CAN I DO? I GUESS NOTHING. BUT IM NOT GOING TO CONTROL YOUR LIFE. IF YOU JUST DONT WANT ME, DONT HAVE ME. ITS NOT GOING TO HURT ME ANY MORE THAN IT ALREADY HAS. YOU MIGHT HAVE IT OFF BETTER, BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO CONSTANTLY HAVE TO DEAL WITH A PERSON THAT LOVES YOU. ALL I KNOW IS THAT ITS GOT TO BE KIND OF NICE, EVEN IF YOU ARE HURTING HER. TO HAVE THAT KIND OF POWER, TO KNOW THAT YOU CAN MAKE HER CRY WITH JUST A FEW WORDS, OR MAKE HER DAY JUST AS EASILY. IM NOT ASKING FOR YOU ANY MORE, BECAUSE I KNOW YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS. SO DO I. BUT THIS JUST ISNT HAPPENING. IS IT GOING TO BE LIKE THIS FOREVER? WHAT ABOUT HIGHSCHOOL? WILL WE JUST GO OUR SEPERATE WAYS AND NEVER SPEAK AGAIN? WILL YOU FORGET ME? IT'LL BE EASY TO LOSE ME, BUT I CANT PICTURE LOSING YOU. I JUST MIGHT LOSE MYSELF IN THE PROCESS. BUT WE HAVE A WHOLE YEAR AHEAD OF US. WHAT WILL HAPPEN? WILL YOU FINALLY GIVE IN AND LET ME HAVE MY WISH? OR WILL WE BE FRIENDS? WILL THINGS GO AS NORMAL? WELL, I HAVE ONE MORE YEAR TO KNOW YOU BEFORE YOU LEAVE MY LIFE. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. IVE TRIED EVERYTHING TO MAKE YOU LOVE ME. I JUST WANT A CHANGE. 365 DAYS IS A SHORT TIME. I'M GOING TO TRY AND MAKE THE MOST OF IT, WITH OR WITHOUT YOU. AND I WISH THAT YOU'LL NEVER FORGET YOU'RE ALL IV'E EVER WANTED. THATS WHAT I REALLY WISH.
LOVE, THE GIRL WHO NEVER GAVE UP
(VENTING)